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gulp
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I had uterine cancer that had spread to the cervix. I had a radical hysterectomy in September 2008, followed by radiotherapy and brachytherapy which finished in January 09. The surgeron thought it had spread and was in the lymph Nodes and told me so after the surgery, but we had to wait for the path report, which would take about six weeks. When he rung me with the results he again said he was very surprised that they were negeative. I am having 3 month smear test of the vault (this is what they call what is left of the vagina) I worry if the cancer has moved elsewhere in the body and if it has they won't pick it up. At one stage they sent me for a full chest scan as they had done a CT scan after surgery as I developed a PE and this showed I had an enlarged Lymph node in my chest, and they only discovered this a number of weeks after the surgery, it was at the end of my radiotherapy, but it proved to be a none advent. I don't think I ever accepted that I had cancer, I kept myself busy the whole time and concentrated on everyone else and not myself. I have a history of depression and anxiety dating back 16 years. I have become more depressed since the treatment finished, I'm not sure if this is hormonal and normal, at 57 years of age, I didn't think I would have a hormonal reaction. I decided at the time I wouldn't or didn't need any counselling or help. I'm just wondering how this has affected other woman????Last edited by Sue on Sun Oct 18, 2009 10:40 am, edited 2 times in total. Sue

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brownjt
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I can certainly relate to you not wanting to accept that you had cancer. I was diagnosed with uterine cancer in Feb. 2008, and I'm STILL working on the acceptance part of the disease. Regarding your depression, whether it is hormonal or not, please don't be afraid to pursue counseling. One year after my treatments ended, I was having trouble moving on with my life and started counseling at my cancer center. What a difference it has made! Remember that you have been through a lot...it takes a while to process and a while to heal - both physically and mentally.

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gulp
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Thank you for that, its great to be able to talk to other people, and find out you are not alone, and also that people have the same feeling you do and that you are not be a drama queen.

bonniesue
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My mom had similar stage and grade(grade1 stage 2b or 1C depending on the path report Feb. 2009. She had your same treatments plus one additional brachytx. It did not go in her lymph nodes and wash was negative. she had 6 pelvic lymph nodes and no paraortics taken. it was greater than one half of myometrium. As far as depression and worries, I think it is common since you have been through so much and all the followups. It has helped my mom to go to ACS for reiki massage and massage, and she has met friends at these centers and done meditation and ChiGong. She is not a big computer person although this site would help. I tell her how many of you are doing and your thoughts and book recommendations. Prayer has helped and her friends that call and send cards. Husband not so supportive so I gave him the book --How can I help-- recommended by one of the ladies. you are not alone and give yourself a break for all you've been through and good health to you.bonniesue

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