Oct 01, 2009 - 10:21 am
My dad aka my best friend has been diagnosed with AML on my birthday oct 23, 2008. At first I felt like God was punishing me for bringing something like this on my birthday but now I try to think about it as a lucky day. If it wasn't for that day maybe it might have been too late and because it was my birthday all the treatments went well..
I just want to know how you guys cope? It's really hard for me to see him like that. He is suppose to be superman, he is my dad I always looked up to him. Sometimes I wish it was me, instead of him. I try to always be optimistic, but seeing him go through this always breaks my heart and puts tears in my eyes. I want him to be active again, I want him to find new hobbies, I want him to learn new skills so he can keep his mind of leukemia but he doesn't seem motivated at all. Am I pushing him too hard? Should i wait a little longer? I just can't see him stay home alone all day, it just gives him too much time to think about how messed up his life just got. I just don't want him to feel unimportant and useless, sometimes I can see that in his eyes and It kills me inside...
That felt good getting it off my chest. I usually don't feel like talking about it with anyone. If anyone asks me about my dad and my family, I always try tell them that everything is good and well.
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