Feeling Hopeless

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pattynonews
pattynonews Member Posts: 176
edited March 2014 in Caregivers #1
Well Jack has been home for little over a week, he was in the hospital because his port got a bacterial infection, so he is feeling better, but we can not start any new treatment until the antibotics are done and I think we have to wait for them to get out of his system so it is really depressing that we just have to sit and wait why the cancer spreads, And last night was the first time I ever heard Jadk say the cancer is getting to my body and spirit, I just feel hopeless, I can see the anixety building up in him, He is so tired and he is getting emotional because he feels he is letting me down. And yea there are days I get so overwhelmed and I just want to run away, and I want to have fun , But I do love Jack and when I have those feelings I feel like Im being selfish, , So I am trying to keep my self busy I started working on a quilt for Jack, and I also have made a blog book from my MY SPACE page, I started a My space page for all of Jack's family and friends, because I just got so overwhelmed with having to call everyone and give them an update especially with bad news, So I started the Page and Title it LIFE WITH CANCER and I put all of Jack updates, I have pictures through the whole year of cancer and now added video's. and it is working out really well all his family and friends are there, Im just doing anything to keep busy, I just hopeful for a treatment that will work for Jack and I hope we can start soon

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  • sue Siwek
    sue Siwek Member Posts: 279
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    don't know what to say, been
    don't know what to say, been dealing with brain cancer for nearly 10 yrs now. it is hard some days. i was advised by my dr. to get on an anti-depressant early on and it helped. have you tried a clinical trial? my husband bought time with one until an approved drug was available. rely on friends and family to boost you up when you are down. i do take pleasure in welcoming my husband each morning with a kiss and say good morning because he is still with us. it is hard, lonely at times, scary everything, but you have this time to say good bye if you have to, hopefully to fight this enemy and win. good luck.

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