Aug 12, 2009 - 2:26 am
Anyone else having a hard time after surgery?
I am 26, I had Malignant Melanoma removed from my left cheek in March of this year. The first surgery lasted over 7 hours. I had a parotidectomy, and a neck dissection to remove lymph nodes. I have partial nerve degradation on that side. Anyone else had a similar procedure? Did your nerve control ever come back? i know it can take over a year for everything to heal. It has affected my daily life. At times I feel as though it gets the best of me. I have a 12.5 inch scar on my face/neck and I cannot let go of the image of myself after I got out of surgery with tubes and everything connected. IT was the most painful experience I have ever dealt with. I feel like when I interact with people it is always something I have to explain and have a tolerance toward explaining.
I seem to have developed a fear/phobia of being out in the sun. I find at times I am depressed and not "with it" meaning im somewhere physically but mentally checked out. My friends will force me to get out and do things, but I find myself resistant. I get to the point where I feel like I am going to die. That I am going to have to deal with this again in the near future and should just say 'screw it' and disregard my fears and carpe diem whatever is left. I have sought help with therapy and all they want to do is medicate me and send me on my way.
Similar thoughts/problems that anyone else is going/gone through? Was there anything in particular that has helped you move on? Or is it one of those things, just give it time.