Aug 05, 2009 - 11:21 am
Well we are in our own room now, after 14 days in ICU, we will be in the hospital 2 weeks tomorrow, I have seen my husband on Death door, I actually know he was so close to dying, he has come so far, I prayed to GOD every day to bring him back to me, and I would never fuss with him again, well maybe just in a different way, I have discovered my husband is so more emotional and crys all the time and he never did that before, when I leave he crys and he use to joke and say I am a BIG BOY, you can leave now he don't want me to leave at all, HE has went from 14 tubes to 2 with a foley cath, he got up today and walked down the hall and back, which is good the more he does things the better he will get, I am so blessed to have him in my life, we will be able to celebrate our anniversary of 3 years on 21st of August, I didn't know if I would see that come on not 2 weeks ago, would we go through surgery again, yes we would. AS a caregiver you have a very hard part, you have to bath them, help them in bed, be there for them, and loose alot of sleep. When I lost my mother about year ago, I buried what you call your BIG GIRL PANTIES, and said I didn't want to ever wear them again. As Jeff got worse, and I got worried I had to go them out of the drawer and put those "BIG GIRL PANTIES" back on, until I get through this ordeal and then i will try to bury them again. Somedays I wish I could just be 8 again and have no worries. I know we will make it through this eventually, but will take some time. We have had excellent doctors, and they have did some miracles with Jeff.