Jun 21, 2009 - 1:49 am
I am 24 years old my husband and i had a 23 year age difference. Got married in 2006.we found the cancer a year later, we had been together for 5 years, i was pregnant when we found out, trips up to rochester, mn off and on, spent every weekend going up there until i was due in feb. My husband was able to be there for the birth, in april a surgery, in october we got the call that it had grown, June he passed and I have a 1 year old. Having a hard time dealing with this, my husband and i had a very special bond and i feel like its not real right now, a lot of whys? I spent every waking minute in the hospital with him taking care of him, bathing him, helping the nurses, i slept on a couch for a week and a half just so that i could be there for him, i watched him take his last breath and that is the worst feeling in the world. I don't know what's harder having a loved one pass instantly or watching them suffer, and die right in front of you. Please if anybody has any words of encourgement for me, that would be great. thank you, its so much easier hearing it from people that have been through this.