Jun 02, 2009 - 9:56 pm
I lost my best friend and love of my life on June 30, 2008. I have been through the "firsts" - july 4, labor day - we loved to watch the fireworks and cookout; thanksgiving -at our house with him frying turkeys; his birthday; christmas - I did put a tree three weeks before and it did feel good; new year's; my birthday; and this saturday - the 6th what would have been our 22nd anniversary. It started really hitting me this weekend that next to the anniversary of his death this one has hit pretty hard. I have a great daughter and son in law with 2 kids and one on the way - she finds out tomorrow what it is. I have reserved myself to the fact that the two stepchildren I have have removed me from their life - I haven't heard from them since Christmas. In addition, it seems that I must have died when Terry did because none of "our" friends come around any more. Now I am focusing on me, my health, my home and property. Why am I writing this? I really don't know - I guess this is the only way I can vent and cry at the same time. I hope everyone out there cherishes the time you have with your loved ones. I tell Terry every day how much I love him and miss him. I know he is in a better place and not suffering and hurting now. That gives me comfort. They say time heals all so I guess I'll just keep taking a day at a time. Thanks for letting me get this out.