Mar 02, 2009 - 2:39 am
I've been a member since last year, but I haven't been an active participant until now...I don't even know where to start...I guess I'm just looking for support and friendship from other people in my situation and this seems like a great place! I've been reading some of the other posts and there's some really great advice and information. It's comforting to know that I'm not alone.
My husband was diagnosed with colon cancer in 2003 and after a year of chemo he was in remission. In October 2007 we were told that it was back, this time stage IV and had spread to other organs. A few weeks ago we were told that there's nothing more the doctors can do for him. So, no more chemo, and now I don't really know what to expect. I've seen him gradually decline, simple tasks and activities wear him out quickly, he's lost weight, etc... Sometimes I feel like I'm dealing with someone else in my husband's body because of the things he says or does. It's like we're losing him slowly before we lose him physically. I feel like cancer has robbed us of so many things and I know I don't need to tell you guys how much cancer sucks!
There are some days when I really struggle with all of this. I'm just trying to take things day by day. If I get ahead of myself and start thinking about life without him and how my daughter and I will cope once he's gone--that's when I start having a pity-party for myself.
I noticed there's a caregiver's chat on Tueday and I'm planning on being there. :)