Hi Again Everyone,
I just wanted to let you all know that my mom passed away on Monday afternoon. I was able to be with her, holding her hand. It ended up just being me and her along with my aunt who held me while I held my mom. It was an awful experience, one in which I will never get out of my head. When I saw her take her last breath, it killed me. I just grabbed her and held her and cried harder then I've ever cried before. Just the night before she told us she was dying and that she wished she could take me with her, I said I wished that too, but I couldn't. She was very drugged up and didn't know really what was going on but the last thing I told her was that I loved her more then anything and it was ok to let go, that we would be ok. I don't know how I am dealing with this. It hurts so bad. All I can do is cry and today is my daughters third birthday. Well at least I know my mom is looking down on me.
Well happy new years to you. Thank you for all your love and support.