Sep 30, 2008 - 2:23 am
I really wish there were some type of handbook that would help in dealing with cancer, with a list of "How To's"...but if there is, I sure can't find it. I'm usually supportive of everyone else in any circumstance, especially cancer related, but I seem to be all out of juice right now. I don't usually reach out to others but instead, just deal with it myself... I don't seem to be doing that very well right now. Guess I figure, what have I got to loose? I've already lost so very much. (Third time out with the cancer)
I'm not one for self-pity, as a matter of fact, I loath it...it's a waste of precious time. I don't pity myself...I see others with their own stories and my heart goes out to them. I think I just feel 'worn down'. I'm having a difficult time in dealing with what's happening to me physically...looks like it's developing in my pancreas. What I do know for sure is that it's changed and my doc told me when that happened, there wouldn't be much he could do because of the type I have (B-cell). It's been indolent, up until now. I'm allergic to everything and can't tolerate chemo.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.