Mar 17, 2008 - 11:15 pm
About 6 months ago I found my true love and soulmate. The most beautiful woman in every way I could ever meet. We have so much in common. We met over our parents. She lost her dad to cancer 3 years ago and I lost both of my parents by 28. She had beat cervical cancer at the age of 22. 5 months ago she was diagnosed with Kidney cancer. She has been in trials for medicine without doing chemo. It had worked for a bit then the tumor grew and it went into her adrenal glands.
The last visit a week ago the doctor basically said unless a miracle cure was found the cancer would take her.
We both met not looking for what we found in each other and I know she is the woman of my dreams and every moment we get we cherish. She is trying to move here to Kansas City to go to the KU med center. The medicine they give her is keeping it from spreading anymore but she says what's the point.
They gave her options with chemo and surgery. At times she gets weak and thinks it would be better to just let me go because she feels bad if something happens. We are planning to get married before she gets to that stage.
I know she can fight this and win but I feel bad for pushing her if those are her wishes. All I can do is to make every second the best it can be. I will never give up hope and I know deep down she can beat this. I want to marry her even though my family thinks I'm nuts I don't care I know even though we have been out of previous long term relationships the time we spend is magical and there is nobody I could ever meet like her.
I was so upset because to meet your true love and then have them ripped away seems unfair. But to have actually found them in this world is a gift of its own. She is scared and I don't blame her. I have no idea what to think at this point I am remaing positive and I will not give up on her getting better.