In November of 06 my oldest sister, 53, called me and told me they found lung cancer. She told me she was optimistic and was going to fight and beat it. The chemo and radiation pulled her down hard and she asked me if I would come and help her. I left my job on a FMLA and home and went to her (mid west) the 1st part of February.
She continued with the chemo, making her so sick and weak then the cancer moved to her bones. My sister had tumors coming out on her every where.
I watched her dwindle away daily, body and mind. She died May 26, 07.
When you become a caregiver you try and do your best for the person, and when they die you're left with questions like, "Did I", "Could I", "Should I".
There are 7 of us siblings, well 6 now but my sister and myself were really best friends. I miss her so much and I am grieving so hard. We lost our mother 2 years ago to lung cancer, I was her caregiver too, I was left with the same questions after she died and I am still grieving over her. I am back in my home state and back to work as of June 11, 07 now trying to cope but it is is hard. Any words of wisdom I would appreciate and also your prayers.