Apr 19, 2007 - 2:29 am
My father is 53 years old. He never really took care of himself, never really went to the doctor's unless absolutely necessary, never really worried about much of anything. He fell 2 months ago down a flight of stairs. Sunday he finally went to the hospital after still not recovering from that fall. Yesterday, he was diagnosed with cancer. I know its in his bones (specifically his lower back, hip and femur), we don't yet know where else. We also don't know what kind of cancer it is, how far its spread, all we do know is its bad. In the last 3 days they've done 6 different CT scans, about 40 x-rays and a battery of other tests. Later this morning they'll be doing a bone biopsy. As a layman (as opposed to anyone with a medical background) I can't understand half of what the doctors are saying. I seriously do not know how to deal with this. I just had my first son, his first grandchild 7 weeks ago. I feel like my whole world is crashing down around me and as much as I do have people here to talk to, they don't understand what it's like. I also have a very hard time actually talking about it, it seems so final to say the words. I'm having a hard enough time just typing them.
How do I stay strong for my dad, when I'm having the hardest time keeping myself composed? How do I be there for him? Is there anything I can actually do to make this any easier on him? He's so down he's actually convinced himself he's "going to leave the hospital in a pine box"... I feel like my entire family is falling apart over this.
Thanks in advance for any help...