Apr 07, 2007 - 3:24 pm
In 2001, I was had a partial nephrectomy performed on my left kidney for stage I renal cell cancer. In March, 2007 I was informed that a follow-up CT scan indicated that I had another tumor near the renal vein on the left kidney. My doctor says that the tumor is small and I have no signs of cancer at any other locations and that I should live another 30 years after my second surgery this May. In 2001, I was told that my odds of the cancer coming back was less then 1% and thought it was no big deal, I'll have the surgery and be cured. Even though my prognosis is good -- it usually isn't for recurring renal cell cancer patients -- I seem to be having more lows than I did in 2001 after the renal cell cancer diagnosis, feel more of a need to talk about the cancer (but do not know who to talk with about the cancer for fear of appearing that I am looking for sympathy or upsetting others)and generally feel overly focused on the cancer.
Generally, I am feeling a bit lost and vulnerable as well.
Are these feelings normal?