Apr 03, 2007 - 9:31 am
I lost my husband to colon cancer March 12, five days before his 38th birthday. We have three sons and I guess I've just been running on autopilot for the last few weeks taking care of them, dealing with all of the details, and whatever. I started back to work ( I had been home with my husband for about eight weeks) and that was a good thing, but now that shock is wearing off and I don't know if I can deal. I feel like I have an elephant on my chest. Everytime I look at my wedding ring I want to burst into tears but thinking about taking it off makes me feel sick to my stomach. I have a few friend at work who have lost thier husbands, even one who is about my age but I'm afraid to talk to them because I don't want to make them upset. Thank goodness one of my kids got a stomach bug and I stayed home today. Is all of this normal or am I losing my mind?