I will thinking and praying for you tomorrow. I hope your first treatment is a breeze. I will tell you like I tell my sis: You are going to be WELL! Just keep the faith, and lean on us! Please let me know how the first treatment goes. I sent an e-mail to you on this site....I tried to send you one. Please check your e-mail. I would love to know where you live, and who your doctors are. You and my sis must have been separated at birth. Everything you are saying is exactly what she is saying. One minutes she is fine, the next she is an emotional wreck. I take my cell phone everywhere b/c I never know when she will need to talk. Good luck and Godspeed! You are in my prayers and thoughts.