Mar 19, 2005 - 1:43 pm
Hello, my name is Sabine, 32 years old and on the 28th of December 2004 the docter told me that I have Melanoma. It has spread al over my body already. But the good thing is that my immune system is still working good and taking lots of the spreadings away by itself. Never the less there is no treatment possible anymore. If I would get treatment it will harm my good cells also and I will get sick. So we are betting on my immune system. Even with treatment it will not make me better. Now I can still go to work, do lots of things that I still wanna do in life. I found it sooooo hard to believe that I within a while I cant do anything anymore. Yes I'm still laughing and enjoying life even though it's in my mind 24/7. But sometimes it hits me hard in my feeling (and not just in the mind) and I get really really scared. I would really like to talk to someone about this fear in me. I can talk to my mother and friends but they don't feel the same fear that I have. They feel a different fear.