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Has anyone experienced a fast spread?

Marty05
Posts: 13
Joined: Jan 2005

Hi folks-
Some exciting things have happened...My husband and I just bought our first house together and we are prepared to move on March 31. It should be a very happy time, but our minds have been refocused to something else.

I have been on Doxil for two months now and had an evaluation that showed some bad stuff going on. Apparently, the cancer has spread. It is in my uterus and breast. I am really concerned about how this has happened so quickly or why it wasn't caught earlier and how it happened while I am on chemo. The doctors have little to say about the why and how and it has created a lot of anger from me and John. It seems strange that it happened so fast. I have been doing everything I've been told to do, I have never missed an appointment, and I have prayed harder than I ever have in my entire life. Has anyone had an experience like this? Did the doctors miss this or could it really have popped up like this?

I am tired, frustrated, and I feel like I am losing. This is my fourth year dealing with this on and off, and I don't really know what else I can do to cope. It has really put a damper on all the excitement I should be feeling being 24 and a new house owner. I don't think I will even be able to help move in. My husband has not slept in about a week. He is tired and frustrated as well. I am worried about him. There is so much to do with the house and there is little I can do to help him. He is exhausted. Still, he prays with me and goes to all of my doctor appointments and jumps on the computer to do the research when I can't. He is an amazing man and I am blessed to have him in my life. I feel terrible for putting him through this. He should be much happier at this point in his life. It just isn't fair.

I have yet to tell my parents. Some of you may know that they are not the most supportive people in the world. With such a bad prognosis, maybe they will finally come around. I am just not ready to face the possibility that they won't come around.

I am sorry I am complaining when so many others have their own things to worry about. I am just really scared and am not too sure what I should do. If you have any info about fast spreading cancer, I would love to know.

Love to all...prayers are sent up for all of you every night.
Marty

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BonnieR
Posts: 1549
Joined: Jan 2004

Dear Marty, sorry I am so slow at responding. Sometimes the words to say are just not there. I felt so bad for you, but know this can still be beat. A part of me doesn't understand why the docs left your uterus. I am on Doxil now and have been told it takes a couple months to show results as it is a slow release chemo. Maybe this is what is happening for you.

Please know you are in our prayers and that we are here for you. You are not complaining and we are so glad you can share with us your ups and downs. Prayers and Hugs Bonnie

Marty05
Posts: 13
Joined: Jan 2005

Bonnie-
Thanks for responding. I really appreciate the support. I am so scared and nervous and depressed...I have never felt quite this down before. Leaving the uterus was partly my choice. I wanted to have children. I understood the risk, but was a little naive in my young age and didn't think it could get any worse after it was taken care of the first time. Now I won't be able to have kids and it upsets me more than ever to know that I will miss out on that experience. I know that there are kids who are in need of good families and I will be able to provide one someday for one of them, but I was hoping to have the birthing experience if you know what I mean.

I have been thinking of you. I knew you had started with Doxil. I keep you in my prayers and hope for happy endings for all.

Marty

Kgoppert
Posts: 4
Joined: Mar 2005

I'm sorry for what you are going through. I have been battling OVCA for 5 1/2 years now, have tried most of the IV drugs including Doxil, which didn't work. Now I am on Hexalen (oral) but it has some pretty solid side effects. The important thing is to get the best care that you can, keep your stresses to a minimal, and focus on what is positive in your life. Sometimes if you can do just a little (packing, planning the move) it makes you feel like you're contributing. My husband is also so good about supporting me when I need it, tells me not to feel guilty that I can't do something. Just make every day a positive experience and treasure the life you have right now. My prayers are with you.

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