Jan 06, 2005 - 1:14 pm
I didnt get a chance to reply to your original post Andreae but I couldnt get it or you off of my mind.
I felt your anguish as I read the post so deeply. This disease is such a horror - it touchs so many good lives with its sheer randomness, no one is immune.
You are so young to have to be facing such challenges, not that any of the rest of us are old, but you have your whole life ahead of you to have to be dealing with something like this is just wrong on all levels.
You have been an inspiration to me and to so many others on this board that I find it hard to now be the one giving you encouragement but I am going to try nonetheless.
I was diagnosed on Dec, 10 with peritoneal carcinomatosis and was told by my onc that I had roughly 6 months to live without surgery (btw, no doctor should be putting such numbers on our lives as no two bodies are the same). This came only 4 weeks after I finished my chemo. I felt exactly as you wrote - devastated, hard to focus on anything, let alone the future.
I realized that while we still have breath in our bodies there is still hope. Even though its hard to see through the cloud of dispair at times, I realized that I needed to keep fighting with everything I have as I have done since I was diagnosed in May, 2004. I know you will do the same Andreae, I know it. You are made of very strong stuff - incredibly strong stuff and I cant imagine having your strengh at your age...I like to think I am a pretty strong, positive person but I am 43 and have had a few years to work on it :).
Anyway, I just wanted you to know that I am praying for you each and every night and you are never far from my thoughts. Please keep us posted and know that we are all behind you, supporting you,always!
All my best,