Nov 13, 2004 - 10:43 am
Hi, as I read through these messages, it gives me a sense of relief that neither I nor my husband are unique in our feelings. My husband was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Disease in March of this year and underwent chemo and rad. He has now been disease free since July. Unfortunately, we are both still suffering. I feel as if he could care less that I am here for him. He is so bitter and his attitude is overwhelmingly negative. I know that this is to be expected, but dealing with it on a daily basis is draining. He basically thinks that it doesn't matter what you do, bad things will happen so why even try. I know that he is depressed and would probably benefit from antidepressants but he won't admit that he needs them. Our relationship teeters on the edge. I just don't know what to do.
Part of me feels so guilty for being angry with him. He can't help it, but how do you deal with anger day in and day out. Never knowing if it will be a good day or a bad one? I have suggested therapy, but he will have none of it. He thinks we're fighting because we are childish. WHat I really wonder is if my feelings do count? I want to be as supportive as I can and help him through this trying time. Does that mean being selflish for a while and just giving him what he needs? Please someone tell me what to do!!!!!!!!!