Oct 16, 2004 - 9:09 pm
I am a survivor of hodgkin's disease. I was diagnosed and treated when I was 19, I am now 32. My life since HD has been very difficult. I have never been happy with what I am doing - I've always disliked my jobs and I've often been very depressed. Currently, I am losing my marriage. Is there anyone else out there who has experienced similar troubles in their post-cancer lives? I feel like I am not able to allow myself to settle in this life; it is as though my experience with cancer has left me always wondering and looking for more in life. I have a wonderful wife who loves (or perhaps now it is more correct to say loved) me, but I am unable to remain faithful to her. I have had two emotional affairs during my marriage and the latest one is probably going to end things for us.
I am desperately in need of someone who understands the life of a survivor to comment on all of this. Thank you for reading.