Sep 29, 2004 - 9:46 am
well it wasnt all that bad and it wasnt all that good. my first chemo appt that is. the area aound the port was so swollen the nurse had to really mash and poke me..she did deaden the area..but it still hurt. i only cried for a mere 20 min.. i cant beleive it took so long to get the iv started.. i went home with a pump to wear all nite that was weird.. couldnt sleep kept thinking i would jerk the pump out. thinks i should change myname to CHEMO SOBBING .. but i can do this.. ijust keep telling myself that.. i told the nurse hey cant you just give me something to knock me out.. i dont even care if you molest me while i am out...hell it might cheer me up..she told me i needed to start going to church.. lol..lol..thanks again for all the kind words and good advice.. every step i feel a little stronger.. and you all help sooo much with that.. peace and my prayers to you each nite.. even if i am a heathen ..heh heh.. God stil loves trouble makers.. my grandma told me...