Sep 22, 2004 - 9:20 am
I just got off the phone with my best-friend who let me know that my inspiration has died. I met Sophie when I was initially diagnosed. She had had metastatic breast cancer for 2 and 1/2 years at the time. She was only 33 years old and had been diagnosed when she was 7 months pregnant. She died yesterday. Thank god it was quick and painless. I'm just so unbelievably sad. I knew the end was coming and I didn't know how I was going to react. I have just heard so many heart-breaking tales since I have entered this realm I thought I couldn't cry anymore. Apparently, I can. I am so sad. I hate this disease. She was such a wonderful, brave person. She was really the one who showed me that I could live with this disease. But I am so scared. It really brings home the fact that I have metastatic disease too. The bottomline is that I don't want to die. Not yet. I'm too young and I want to do so much. Thank you for letting vent. I don't want to call my friends crying and I'm home alone and needed to express.