Dec 04, 2002 - 9:06 pm
hi i'm new to this group, and find that i have to talk to someone. i was a sophmore in high school when i was diagnosed with bone cancer. i went through two years of treatment, and now only suffer from a limp and sometimes stress fractures.
Now i am 18 yrs old and in the middle of my freshman year in college and all the bad stuff is coming back. my anxiety is out of control and my panic attacks are daily and paralysing. My hands are always shaking. i feel very disappointed that i'm not getting better, like i thought i was and i feel like by now i should be moving on with my life. What makes it harder is living with girls my age that honestly just don't understand and it makes me feel extremely disconnected from everyone around me.
But my main concern is that i am taking to long to get my life back together. i am terrified the cancer is going to come back, but also that i'm not strong enough to move forward.
peace and love