May 11, 2002 - 9:07 am
This is my first message to a discussion group, ever. I am 33 years old and I have breast cancer. I am in the middle of chemo right now then on to radiation. I have not been involved in any support groups, I am afraid to because I don't think I can really be honest about what I am feeling. I hate to complain, or appear weak. In reality, I am devastated. It is not just the cancer, one week after I received the diagnosis, I found out something that will most likely destroy what I thought was a happy and strong marriage. For one week I had the most amazing support and outlook, then it all came to a screeching halt. I hope this isn't to much information, for me its all part of this experience, try as I may, I cannot take one thing at a time. I am lucky in so many ways, I have great family and friends, I have good insurance, and we are financially secure. I should feel blessed that we have the means to make it through this, instead I only focus on the negative, I feel mortally wounded.