Apr 30, 2002 - 10:59 pm
I am newly diagnosed, well 3 months, still going thru chemo and reconstruction and have not yet returned to work. I signed up for my relay for life team at work well before I ever imagined that I would be diagnosed. I worked for the oncologist that I am a patient of now about 4 years ago so I have always been "aware" of the fight against cancer and have participated in several realy for lifes. I now work for a bank and have been asked by several friends and family if I am going to walk the survivors walk. Realy is this fri and I signed up for the survivors walk, uncertain though. I asked my chemo nurse, 'am I really a survivor or am I still a fighter?' she said you are certainly a survivor and will always be a fighter. I am rather uncertain about doing the survivor walk because there still are so many people who still dont know what i have been through and we are a medium sized community so I know I will see lots of old friends and associates. What I am afraid of is the emotional impact this may have being so newly diagnosed for as you all know these last 3 months have been a whirlwind and I really havent had time to think about how I feel about it. If anyone can give some insight.