May 01, 2001 - 12:24 am
Hello gang. How is everyone doing? It's been a long time since I talked to all of you. I believe I told you that my mom had died on March 8. The next week I just fell apart physically. I guess she was my last responsibility and my body had no more stamina. I collapsed completely. Slept for 20 of 24 hours the first weeks, 16 of the 24 the second week. I believe that I told you that I was moving in with my wonderful oldest daughter and her family. I just couldn't stand living alone any more, couldn't make decisions and didn't want to make decisions, and didn't want any more responsibilities. Well, yesterday, we finished up the move, cleaned the apartment and today I turned in my keys. It was sad in a way, but this is much better. I feel so much better, gaining my strength back every day. I just have to learn not to do too much just because I'm feeling better. Because of that stupid determination of mine, I took a lot of boxes upstairs to unpack myself. I hurt my knee, well really, I just aggravated the arthritis and had bursitis. The orthopod injected it with cortisone and told me to stop the moving, to not bend and to not lift anything. Well, I've been pretty good, but I just can't let my kids do everything for me if I feel I can do it. Anyway, that cortisone is great stuff. I am actually walking now without a limp for the first time in several years. I had no idea how bad it had gotten.
My depression is going away, or at least getting under control. I think living with the pain was a lot of my depression.
I don't want to bore all you guys with my stuff. Tell me about what has been going on with all of you? I sincerely hope that all of you are healthy, happy and peaceful. We have all been to hell and back, some of us more times than any one person deserves. But -- we are fighters and we are winners.
ONWARD AND UPWARD!