Changing of the Seasons

3Mana said:

I had the same feelings!
Kathy,
I felt the same way you do. I laid on the couch all day, crying and couldn't eat or sleep. Didn't even want to go out of the house & always loved summer. But somehow when you lose the one you love who shared everything with you it seems as though nothing matters anymore. But it does get better. It's only been 2 months for you so your feelings are perfectly normal.I
started seeing a counselor about a month after Tom died. It's really helped me alot to talk
to her. I felt like I was going to crack up some days and found out that is a normal feeling.
Especially when they are the love of our lives. Do you have kids?? I have 3 and don't know
how I would have gotten this far without their help and support. They miss their dad alot
but have kids of their own to keep them busy. I am alone, so had way too much time to think.
So hang in there & keep posting. "Carole"

Thanks Carole
I guess knowing what I feel is not unusual is somewhat encouraging. No we don't have children, I am 13 years younger than my husband and we never had a family, just enjoyed being the two of us together. I have made an appointment to see a counselor myself and hopefully that will help. I will say I kind of don't mind the not eating part, while i know it's not healthy I haver lost over 30 lbs since his dx (he only lived 9 mos) one small silver lining I guess, but I'd give it all back in a second just to have him back.

Anyway thatnks for your kind words

Kathy