Turning 37 and a new year

Hi all:

Today, I turned 37. Most of my 36th year of life I was either sick and they couldn't figure out what was wrong with me or I was fighting cancer. I feel like today is the first day of the rest of my life. I didn't tell a lot of people it was my birthday becasue I quietly wanted to say good-bye to 36 and welcome 37 as a new year and a new lease on life. I wanted to morn the past year, just sharing it with my family and close friends. After I went into recovery I felt depressed and feared the cancer would come back. My birthday has given me a sense of peace with my cancer. Almost like it is a new begining. I feel like I can really put the cancer behind me and go on now. Does this make sense to any of you? I know that only cancer suvivors can understand the emotional side of being a survivor. Also, I hope this helps anyone who is still feeling depressed. I am not saying that I will never worry again or that I won't look back on this past year and feel sad. There is just peace within me that wasn't there before today. I know my life has changed for ever but I can except it now. Lia