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guilty
I have been dating my bf for over 5 yrs. He was just dx'd w bladder ca, which is his 2nd cancer dx (our first together). He is understandably depressed but does not want to go for psych support. He also understandably wants to pursue surgery ASAP. I am scared and concerned and sad and angry. I want to "be there" for him.…
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Penneymac
How are you doing?
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hanging from the knot at the of the rope
My youngest sister is struggling in her battle with Ovarian cancer. She has been on hospice at home since April of this year. This is a heartbreaking time for my other sister and my mother as we watch everyday as she weakens. Thank God we have each other, God Bless those that have to be the only caregiver to their loved…
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So Sad
I'm so devastated...my mom was only in remission for 6 months from Mantle Cell Lymphoma and now it is back again! So now the treatment is going to start all over again and if it goes as planned a bone marrow transplant. I don't know how to be strong for her again because I feel so empty inside. I just was hoping there…
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Feeling unsure unprepared and uncomfortable
So PET scan showed his tumors are barely visible. Still have treatments till March. So many questions in my head that I am afraid to ask the doctors. His CEA numbers spiked to a 66 after we started rads and now down to a 49. This all sounds like good news. Dr keeps telling us we will get there and have a few years of…
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Women and Their Hair
So she goes to a new salon, with a picture of a gorgeous brunette with the "exact cut that I would kill to get", .....several attempts have failed to reach the perfection found in said photo. One week after her 2nd bone scan, which showed another two tumors in addition to the four found this past April, went to another…
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i called Hospice :(
i called hospice over the weekend for dad. his chemo is not working and it's making him feel like hell. i asked him if he wanted to stop for a while and see if maybe he can feel better. he said yes, and they have been wonderful. one reason that made me feel it was the right thing to do was, when the primary nurse walked…
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Update: Skipper
Husband decided to go for the chemo. I can't believe it. He'll start it Jan. 6th. Hopefully there won't be any adverse reactions like with the Erbitux. He'll be getting Methotrexate. I have to research it yet but it was that or Taxotere. He'd rather not take that because there is a chance he could have the same reaction…
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Vegan diet?
What kind of diet are you giving your loved one? I have been a vegan for a little over 2 yrs and am now feeding my mom vegan, just because that is what I cook. Mom has always been a meat/dairy eater and never looked at labels and used Raid and other aerosols and poisons and cleaners without thought about it. Her dr didnt…
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Hes gone
A few days ago my Grandpa passed away. I was holding his hand when it happened. I held his hand for 8 hours before he passed. I miss him so much. I took care of him for a little more than a year. Christmas is ruined this year, I dont think I can do this without him here. Its funny, I always thought I was taking care of him…
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We were air ambulanced today
Ambulance to the local airport, small jet with two nurses for a nail biting hour and a half, another ambulance ride to the VA in Richmond, and here we are. Thank God for the VA benefits. I can't imagine what kind of bills we'd be facing. The referral for my hostel stay didn't come through. I'm staying on the leftover cot…
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Mom is at peace.
My dear mother passed in the wee hours of Sunday morning, surrounded by her family and holding my hand. She fought her pancreatic cancer for six months and held on bravely until the very end. It's a small measure of comfort to know she's no longer in pain and at peace. Thank you all for sharing your lives on the board and…
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PET and CAT results came today
I posted this in the Head & Neck boards, so if you have seen this before, you aren't seeing things Hubby Pat had his surgery Oct 1 - radical neck dissection and a complete laryngectomy. Right after his surgery, his doctor told me that if the surgery had been postponed by a week or two, he would have died. The tumor was…
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When everyday or every minute could be your last.... What do you talk about?
What do you talk about? I am curious what I should talk about with my mom. I know we have limited conversations left. What do you talk about with your loved ones?
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How do you deal with depressing people...
Saw my mom last week. Her spirit is good, her body is not. It was good just to spend the time. Now I have to go back to work until I break for Christmas. How in the he'll do you deal with depressed and high-strung people who have 1/10th the **** and stress in their life? There are a couple of people at work who seem…
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upper body CT scan vs lower body CT scan
What organs are scanned in the lower body CT scan and what organs are scanned in the upper body CT scan?
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Almost Lost My Husband Today
Every day with cancer is an adventure. Found out the latest CT scan showed cancer popping up in various places in his abdomen, neck of his pancreas, chest wall and there were more lung nodules. All these were small. That was the good part of the doctor visit. Today my husband was supposed to start his Erbitux treatments.…
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Hubby now in peace
My hubby finally is now in peace. He passed Sunday at 2:30. all his family was with him. I would like to thank the members for great support during this very short bout with cancer. God bless all of you for the great job that you are doing taking care of your loved ones. Stay strong.
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Mom got stuck in her chair tonight- need advice please
My mom hasnt been eating very well the last few days and has gotten real weak. She also has mets in her bones (spine, pelvis and hips). The Home Health people said she needed to get out of her hospital bed everyday, get dressed with panties and sit in her recliner. Today was not a good day though and mom wouldnt get out of…
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Mom wont take her meds
My mom was dx with breast cancer that has spread to her spine, pelvis and hips. She has several fractured ribs. She is schedualed for a colonoscopy because they think it is in her colon too. She was given the smallest dose for morophine. My mom has been in excruciating pain and her back is visably messed up. She has a…
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Again, So Now What
Yeah it is me again!Mom is still in the hospital six days I have watch my mom get stents changed this week watched her cry .She states she is not in pain because the Dr told her if she had no pain the stents worked.What she didn't realize is she also has pain from the tumors.They are talking about putting her in extended…
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Looking Back (words fail me)
My husband mentioned that he'd just read my first post on our CaringBridge blog. This inspired me to go back and read what I'd written over the last month or so. He came by later and found me in tears. He assumed that someone on CAN had died. No, I told him, I'm just reading what we went through a few weeks ago. How did we…
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Living with cancer
I don't want to offend anyone, but I just really need to vent. My mom is becoming a ****, and my dad and I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know anyone that's gone through something like this, as friends we've known who had breast cancer for 10 years were taking care of 5 kids, teaching, doing their best as…
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Meltdown Cure
I was having a meltdown today. I had to get out, so my best friend and I did a little Christmas shopping even though my heart wasn't really in it and then we went to Andy's. It's a burger & shake place that plays 50's & 60's music - mostly 50's. We stayed there about two hours and I felt so much better listening to the…
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Suden mental disorientation/confusion/hullucination
Has anyone experienced this with their loved ones? This happened to my mom last week and the Doc's Said it's not cancer related. BUT, I have heard and seen it happen before. Can anyone explain this or even if it's happened to your loved one can you post something?
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Update on Mike
The e mail came from the Washington transplant office today! They are willing to take a closer look at Mikes case and complete the transplant work up to see if he's well enough to handle the surgery. First he's got to get rid of the infection he's developed over the last few days, and they are now babying his kidneys as…
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unthinkable, unmentionable
There are things that go through my mind almost everyday that I feel I can't share with a soul. That I'm wrong for thinking these things, but I don't know what to do to make them either go away or make them lessen so I don't think them. I feel like an awful horrible person. And I'm not sure if there is anyone that would…
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UPDATE_ My father
They did not find cancer in my father. The mystery still remains about the blood in his urine,but he is still cancer free.
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My Three New Friends
Melancholy, cynicism and resentment. None of which is towards my better half. All three are kept at bay until she's asleep. All she will see is one of the best acting jobs since Heston was Moses. Every morning I have to "get in character" so that her day will be the best I can make it. Other than her well being,…
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spam filter problems
All, As you know, we've had increased problems with spamming on the boards lately. In an attempt to minimize spam, a spam filter was installed this morning. The filter has been marking some posts as spam which are not spam and blocking the authors (i.e. members) from posting on the boards. Please excuse this inconvenience…