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Your children/child
How are your children handling the loss of their parent? I have a daughter-she was 24 when my wife, her mother died, 18 months ago. She is our only child. I sometimes worry how she is processing her mother’s death. She and her mom had a “bond” I cannot replicate. I am a believer in the maternal bond, a woman carries a…
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How to I survive my Mom's death?
It won't be much longer now before my Mom leaves this world forever. One week ago, I am stressing about changing her depends, days later its switching her to very soft foods, and now she is practically in a coma. I am a MESS as you can imagine. A few days ago we had a foley catheter put in. It really relieved my Mom's…
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Is there an international sign for back off?
what a horrible few minutes. Things have changed so much since my partner died 8 1/2 weeks ago that I have to change my language even. I used to say what a great day or what a long afternoon. Now I have to look st things in terms of emotional roller coaster moments. We spent so much time trying to live life normally that I…
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It's not self pity
Ok, I swear I won't write an entire book this time. I just need to get something off of me and this place seems to really help. Besides the anger issues I'm trying my hardest to deal with today something hit me with so much enormity I had to pull my truck over because I was bawling so hard I couldn't see to drive. I…
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My first Valentine's Day without him
Well, I just spent my first Valentine's Day without my sweet husband... I guess I survived it ok. First thing was to visit my husband's resting place and give him some more flowers since it was a few weeks ago since I was there last. then I signed off on his car and went to the first Liver Cancer Support Group. Sadly I was…
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Let me grieve!!
I am doing well. Thats my phrase I tell everyone who asks how I'm doing. My skin actually crawls when I hear that question because they don't really want to go through all the layers of emotions I'm feeling so I give them what they want to hear. I do often wonder what their reaction would be if I unleashed some of those…
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I cry crocodile tears for Mark
Hello all, I went back to the time I first started posting on CSN to reread what I have wrote and all the great replies. I saved them to my computer to reflect on the Journey that my loving husband took in 2011. I still miss him so much. I have a journal that I write in daily to Mark. I constantly cry crocodile tears from…
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donations
I was just wondering where I can donate so many medical supplies that my late husband has not used. A lot of track supplies. suction machine, and the tubes that you use to suction out the track. Also a lot of can food that I have left, cases and cases. I have boxes of supplies that are sitting out in my garage not even…
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Sadly I am new to this particular section
After two plus years since my husband's diagnosis he passed away under the care of Hospice on January 14th. It was such a horrible experience. I don't think I will ever get over it. I miss him and am lost without him. We would have been married 40 years this April. I miss talking to him and waking up in the middle of the…
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My dad was *EVERYTHING* to me...!!!
It's been five *IMPOSSIBLE* years without him...! My dad was/is my Superman. Any fears that I had as a child were immediately obliterated when I thought about him. Even as cancer tried to take him over, it couldn't take that. My father fought with cancer for twenty... years... I was a *kid* when that dirty word bombarded…