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Grief and Bereavement

Archives for May 2011

Can his family really hijack my husbands last wishes
Apparently they can. Hello- to those that don't know me- my husband passed last Tuesday May 24th, with lung cancer and mets to the brain. His family were totally absent during this time even when my daughter came from the UK every month to Texas to support us when they found it unbearable to come from one hour away. Less…
Woke up with hot flashes
I lost my 85 year old father to colon cancer back in Feb. Even before he died, I was in constant overdrive; taking care of him, watching his decline, knowing that he was going to leave me. Thank goodness for Hospice, friends, and family; they got me through some really tough times. After his death, the big push was getting…
Going It Alone
It will be a year June 14 that my Terry left this world. It has been very hard pushing forward, working, taking care of the house, dealing with finances. As difficult as it has been,I can definitely see progress. I did something I have never done before...went to the movies alone. Saw the Bridesmaids, which was pretty…
Memorial Day
This is the second big holiday to pass without Patrick here. In this house, St. Patrick's Day does count as a major holiday. As the unofficial start to summer, for the first time ever I'm having a barbeque. Everyone that is coming knew my husband and most of them weren't at his service in February (has it been that long…
One Year
It's hard to believe that in a few days I will have the one year anniversary of my husband's death. I'm not sure whether the year went fast or slow. In fact, looking back I have no recollection of the year passing, it just did. I made it through all of the firsts: graduations, birthdays, anniversaries, holidays...but, now…
It's been a month already
This morning marks one month since Frank passed. I am missing his physical presence acutely; I miss talking to him, sleeping next to him, walking down the street hand in hand with him. I am going about my life, working, socializing, keeping myself busy...but Frank is in my thoughts constantly and I am partly living in a…
Dealing w/Mom's Passing
My mother passed in February, 2011 and I am having a difficult time. She was diagnosed with lung cancer last year, and died suddenly at home from a blood clot. It was the most horrific thing I have ever experienced and I am not dealing with it very well. She had been to her Oncologist that very day, was having trouble…
My Birthday
Today is my birthday. Last year at this time my parents hosted a 50th birthday brunch for me at a beautiful waterfront resturaunt. It wasn't so much the milestone (50, but that is which I hated) but their generous attempt to make a memory for to keep with me. Hank was doing great that day, loved the food and the company…
First birthday alone
I lost my husband ,George 3 months ago after a 2 year battle with stomach cancer. We had been married for 38 years and he was my rock, best friend and reason for living. Yesterday it was my birthday and one of the worst days since I lost him. These past couple of weeks have been really bad seems like I'm going backwards.…
bad week
This week is probably the hardest week yet. Tomorrow makes 3 months since Patrick has been gone, and Wednesday the 18th is/was our wedding anniversary. We would have been married 4 years. I'm all over the place emotionally. Had a spectacularly good day Sunday as I made it through his clothes without too much of an issue.…
unraveling
I need an answer, some way to understand This feels so convincing and a little out of hand So tell me one thing who gave you all those scars? That took away your innocence You push away with everything you are, I can't take this anymore I'm tired of breaking, I'm tired of faking I want the world to see you sold a broken…
i cant stop crying...do the tears ever dry up
sometimes, its like a joke, its like am dreaming, sometimes i pick up the phone to call him then i remember he is not here anymore. will it ever heal? i miss him so much
And it all came unravelled
It is now 17 months since hubby passed. I dont post often but do lurk and drop a line once in a while. As some of you may know in the first 8 months after hubby passing I had to get the girls and myself a new place to live and I also changed jobs. The one year mark was hard but I thought I was doing ok, getting better at…
Another weekend, here we go again....
Weekends are hard because I do not have my work, which give me focus. I'm trying to stay busy this weekend because I've learned that I need planned activity! I'll be planting flowers today (Saturday) in memory of my husband. Sundays are always hard, but I purchased tickets to a show for my son and me. We'll also go to…
The Sign On My Front Door
NOTICE TO ALL WHO ENTER HERE --------------- I am not broken. I am simply grieving. Please do not try to fix me. I WILL talk about my departed husband. He is still a huge part of me and always will be. I am being very self-indulgent and compassionate with myself at this time. Don't be surprised if I still have on my…
I still can't believe she's gone
This still seems like a horrible dream even as I write this. I have had double tragedies in my life months apart. Late last year, my mum started feeling numbness in her right leg. She then went to an orthopedic doctor who quickly diagnosed it as sciatica. He put her on some nerve stimulating drugs which helped for…
trouble
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTuh41W9dwU I'm feeling a bit irritated. I feel incredibly taken advantage of by someone who does know better. I will admit to some of this being my own fault - I got taken in. But on the other hand, for one this person should know better and for two if you tell me one thing and do another…
Their gifts
It has been just nine months since my wife of 32 years died. In 1975 I was struggling in a private college in San Diego. I was working full time as a nurse’s aide while trying to navigate 15 units living in a dorm. I was struggling. Last week, 36 years later, I flew down to Sand Diego on business and returned to my…
Pets
Some of us have talked about our pets before and how they are helping us through this time. I just thought I'd give the cat some face time, just to show I'm not strictly a dog person. Fay

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