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Grief and Bereavement

Archives for December 2010

How do you do it
As I have posted before some of you may know I lost my husband to rectal cancer in July. How do the rest of you do it. The holidays, for me, just intesified the loss and how much I miss him. My family and friends are very supportive, I am doing all of the things I thik I can do, coundeling meds etc, and nothing seems to…
The mornings
Is it just me or is anyone else finding early morning, when you first wake up a miserable time of day? I find myself waking up between 4 and 5 and every worry, stress and lonely feeling is right on the surface. It is probably the worse time of day for me. I usually just get up and start cleaning or something. Just wonder…
Why did she leave me so early?
Hi all, I never thought I would be posting on this board - always thought and assumed that my mom would be perfectly fine. I have no idea how to cope with her going away. It's been 3 months but my pain is getting worse. I can make out that my behaviour has changed and I am not nice as I used to be. I just feel that Life is…
Bring on 2011!!!!!
It has to be better, right?? I am so ready to see 2010 go away, I lost both my mother and mother in law, both way to soon and quickly. So far I have "made" it through Thanksgiving, my moms bday, and Christmas. I'm thinking there are more hard times to come, but perhaps things will not feel so "raw" and I will be able to…
I'm new to this and need someone or something....
My name is Misty. I watched my father lose his battle with kidney cancer. He recently passed away 10/01/2010, in my home. He was diagnosed with cancer November 2009. Dec 23 2009 we found out it was stage four renal cell carcinoma. He was the strongest man I have ever known. I was responsible for his funeral arrangements…
Has anyone else???
Have you gotton any Christmas cards addressed to you and your loved one that has passed on? I have and even though I know they just don't know, or haven't heard yet it doesn't lessen the pain I feel in my gut. If only it was both of us together like always.....God I never thought this would happen to me and I really don't…
Peace during this holiday
Just wanted to wish all of you a Merry Christmas. Hopefully we can find some level of peace during this holiday...enjoy some time with the loved ones that are still with us and keep those that are no longer here in our hearts. Hugs to all. Becky
Merry Christmas From Heaven
Merry Christmas From Heaven I still hear the songs I still see the lights I still feel your love On cold wintery nights. I still share your hopes And all of your cares I’ll even remind you To say all your prayers I just want to tell you You still make me proud You stand head and shoulders Above all the crowds Keep trying…
Feeling like the wicked witch of the west~
~~I'm Melting!!!~~ Too many meltdowns the past couple of days. Cannot get a grip and seem to keep being drawn to things that I know will prevoke a meltdown. As if I am looking to wallow in despair and pity..... All that is left of blood is my 85 year old Mimi, my brother and my 2 sons. If it weren't for my oldest (21) I…
He went with Jesus, yesterday!
My Love, Dennis, went to be with our Lord yesterday. It came fast, he suffered but two days with pain, continuously told me he loved and adored me, held me and kissed me until I told him to take Jesus' hand and go. I told him how sad I would be, but because of his love I will continue. Thank you dear friends for all of the…
Just checking in
Thinking of all my "discussion board" friends...hope you can find some level of peace during this very difficult time of year.
Hitting a low
Having one of those mornings. Getting tired of waking up every morning feeling like I am stuck in this life I don't want. Miss my buddy, my life with him. Miss being happy. Well just venting...on to another day.
How are the holidays going for you?
I know this is hard to talk about, but I havent seen many posts lately on this board and I am wondering where everybody is and how we are doing. For me, it really hasn't been too bad but next weekend is Doug's family's Christmas party. I don't communicate or see them too much because they are 2 hours across the state and…
Not sure I like who I have become and I KNOW my husband does not!!!
Obviously, I knew from the day mom was dx that I would be forever changed, then once she past, again, forever changed in a new way. Not sure I like me. I am cold to my husband. Everything he does irks me. I don't know why, but today I saw it all clear and will TRY to make a conscious effort to change. Just for a little…
Im new/ Recently Lost my mom!
Hi All, My mom battle cancer for 3yrs it started in her colon, then moved to her lung,liver,brain,and hip. Our Journey started in October 2007 she was told she had colon cancer had the surgery removed it and we kept fighting, shortly while my mom was recovering with me we was told my stepdad had lung cancer, he was on…
1 year tomorrow
Tomorrow will be the anniversary of my Paramjeet's passing. I have had flashbacks over the last 2 weeks of the last 2 weeks of his life. I was hopeless last week and am feeling better this week but my heart aches for the memories he will not share as our 2 beautiful girls grow up. I often feel him around ...so near yet so…

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