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Butterfly....
For once in my life I couldn’t deny I thought that I’d found my everything, A lover a friend, the hours we would spend just doing nothing at all, Yeah, but your need to leave is your so long, break free let go, Butterfly fly, fly away from here Go and try, try through the laughter and the tears You’ll always be a part of…
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Its been 4 months I can't believe it still...
I've been having a tough but ok time over the last 4 months when I lost my mom with colon cancer. Its Xmas eve and i find myself going back here. I used to go to Cancer Surivors Network just to read stories to calm myself down when my mom was on treatment for 4 months.....i saw alot of hope. But when she was taken away…
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Two Months
Today is a tough day. My husband died two months ago today. The children's Christmas program and the Christmas music at church really got to me. During prayer time I asked for prayers for those still fighting cancer and for those working to find a cure. I got lots of hugs afterward. The tears just kept coming. I was ok,…
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2009 XMAS AND 2010 NEW YEARS MESSAGE BOARD
Hey Everyone, Just a short message from me and place for all of you to post Xmas and New Year's Greetings to all on this site and to all CSN Staff as well. No words can ever describe how imporatant this site is to so many survivors and their families and friends and for that we are all, I'm sure I can speak for all, truly…
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I know you can't help, just need to speak
I know that no one here can help me, but I just feel the need to say how I'm dealing with my loss and pain. My husband, who was my best friend, passed from lung cancer on 10-13-09. I haven't been copping well at all. I'm on several medications, but the panic attacks are the worst. I can't even leave the house anymore. I…
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pancreatic cancer
My husband was told he had pancreatic cancer stage 4 a little over a month ago. I am finding it very hard coping and still trying to be strong for him. Good days and bad. I'm trying to cope. We have a one and a two year old. How do you get the strength to keep going? All I seem to have is prayers to keep me going.
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Never thought I would need permission to grieve
I have had enough of people telling me I have to be strong for my children. Apparently I need to get on with the business of life. In the meantime it feels like my life went on pause 11 days ago when I watched my husband sigh his last breath. I can't seem to find the space to mourn my loss. Everyone keeps trying to keep me…
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Another 'chemo Christmas' and a 'same old/same old' New Year'c celebration. :(
After a glorious 5-month remission where I actually felt GOOD and had hair and eyebrows and a LIFE, my cancer has recurred and I am back in chemo. It's hard enough to know that now my cancer is considered uncurable and my treatment 'palliative'. But having it happen at Christmas makes it particularly hurtful a blow.…
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The nights are so hard,
I seem to be able to get through the days but when the night comes I start missing Jack so much,I feel my emotions to overwhelm me, I just miss Jack and start crying, I just dont know how to start to move on, Im to the point that for the last 3 nights as soon as it gets dark I get stomach pain , not sure if it is just…
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If things could not get worst,
Well if things could not get worst, As you know Jack passed and I was finally getting back to work and I was doing home health care, but walmart asked me to come back and so I quit my homehealth job and went to walmart which I made less at but at least I was not care taking, And they told me at walmart I was only…
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hYDROGEN PEROXIDE - oXYGEN
Has anyone with terminal cancer tried this? Or know someone. Wanted to know opions on success. benefits, side effects, concernd. Thanks Aveena
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there is hope!
hello, my name is connie. i live in anton tx. my mother has cancer. she started i believe when she was 35 yrs old with breast cancer. she has dealt with this cancer for 27 years. and can you believe, she is still here with us! Thank GOD!!! so, to anyone that is going through this, you know its hard. all i can say is that…
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minnie mn
How are you doing? let us know michelle n
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This is so hard
My husband passed away of head and neck cancer on October 31. He had fought for 2 years - went through chemos, radiations, a test trial . . . Mike died at home surrounded by his family. When he passed, my 21 year old and I bathed and dressed him, which was one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life. I am…
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Does it get easier?
As you all know, my husband passed on 11/24/09 and since the funeral I have just been going through the motions. I don't sleep much and then I force myself to get up in the morning and do what needs to be done. My family have all disappeared into their own lives again and life goes on. My brother-in-law and sister-in-law…
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Is there hope, or else how do we go on
My name is Aveena and currently live in Mumbai I recieved news today that my dad is terminal anything between 6-8 months. It strated as colon cancer diagnosed mid novemeber which they were suppose to operate on 24 November only to discover it has now spread to the entire liver and bones. The doctors say they will only try…
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He has gone on a new journey without me
After a valiant battle, my husband passed away at 11p.m. last night. Have to finalise the funeral / cremation arrangements this morning. We cremate within 24-48 hours of death so its going to be a busy day. I am numb.
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In Response to the woman about the hydrogen peroxide and cancer
Hi we stumbled upon your post.and weve learned a few amazing things.and please tell your mother she should take the hydrogen peroxide food grade by mouth also.and please look up DMSO and cancer and baking soda.and we were very impressed with what they had to say.along with apple cider vinegar about 1/4 cup of vinegar.3…
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You would think by now it wouldn't bother me - cold people I mean, sigh
Sheeesh, what a shocker. Is stupid the right word? Ignorant, injured in some way? All of the above? Who knows, but all I do know is that it seems that even time and experience, with people who seem so heartless when it comes to dealing with the news of my cancer past, even time and experience don't dull the hurt when they…
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Is there anything you wish the healthcare professionals would have done differently throughout your
When I was going through radiation and chemo treatment for my anal cancer in 2008, I wish my caregivers would have had conversations with me about the whole me, not just my tumor they were working to rid me of. I had complications with scar tissue in the vagina, and though I was told that my husband and I should be able to…