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When Does The Hurting Stop?
Hi Everyone: I thought I was doing great. Of course I had some sad days. I've avoided this board because I guess I just didn't want to be reminded of my own grief. I know I let some of you down by not supporting you. I'm really sorry about that. It's been almost 6 months since my husband passed and 7 months since my sister…
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Relatives... who knew?
Let's see... I got to get a handle on this or this will drive me crazy and I will do something I will regret later. I can't be the only one going through this. Some of you will remember my husband is a "Harley" rider... we took summer vacations on the rode, the most exciting one was "Sturgis" in South Dakota, the biggest…
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One Month Today...
I've been counting days since last Father's Day 2010 when my husband was diagnosed with melanoma and now it seems I am still counting days. Crazy. Will time ever be my friend once again? It has been one month today that he has been gone, his last breath taken and my life changed forever. Nothing is the same and yet I walk…
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Life Celebration Over... What Now?
Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. ~Flavia Weed, Forever I have been avoiding my computer, my one outlet of release has been writing and expressing my feelings and then sharing them with Bob, the one person who could…
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post vacation blues
So I spent a week in Berkeley with my brother and SIL and that was WONDERFUL! Getting some distance did help, as I was not constantly surrounded by memories and associations with Frank. Not to mention that helping with 7 month old twin babies (only 4 in their premie adjusted ages) does not leave much room for sitting…
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Joy in Life
How does one find that joy for life again after losing your spouse? I lost George just over 4 months ago we were married for 38 years. He was my best friend and the one person I could depend on. He had just retired and we'd completed building our dream home in the country when he was diagnosed with stomach cancer so we had…
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Father's Day
My dad passed away (I've written numerous posts about it) on January 19th, 2011 at 56 years old from sarcoma tumors in both lungs. This Sunday is Father's Day, and the 5 month anniversary of his death. My heart is broken...the tears have been close the falling. With warmth, hugs, and prayers...
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Checking in....
Hello to everyone. I know it's been well over a month since I've been here to visit. Hard to say why exactly. Part of it is just because of sheer overload in every day life. But to be honest, part of it was not wanting to face the emotions that would inevitably be brought out here. All of April and a lot of May was a tough…
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Severe Grief
I cannot believe the amount of grief I am experiencing over my wifes cancer. It just doesn't seem to stop. However I do need to cope with it to look after her and my children without doing anything stupid due to the extreme emotions I am going through. My wife was driving a car little more than 4 weeks ago. Today she is…
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The Black Hole...
I could get lost in it... if I let myself, this darkness. There is still so much to do for my husband's Celebration of Life on June 18th, and I have gone back to work. There certainly has been enough to keep me occupied during the day but my nights are dark and quiet... my heart aches for him. The space beside me lies…
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Forever Changed
Can you see the change in me? It may not be that obvious to you. I participate in family activities. I attend family reunions. I help plan holiday meals. You tell me you're glad to see that I don't cry anymore. But I do cry. When everyone has gone, when it is safe the tears fall. I cry in privacy so my family won't worry.…
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Support group
I lost my husband, best friend and soul mate almost 4 months ago. We had been married for 38 years. I started to attend a support group and after the first meeting we were asked to bring a photo of our loved one to share with the group. This I did and it was Ok however our assignment for the next meeting is to share with…
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I want to be normal again!!!
My husband died March 22, 2011 and I am so lonely. He was only 55 and we worked together everyday. I have lots of friends and family, but I constantly miss him so much. We were married 37 years and he told me everyday that he loved me! I will never hear that again! I want to be normal again but I dont know where to start.…