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The birthday that wasn't
Hi. My mom would have been turning 80 today. A milestone bday. But she's gone, passed away in June 09 four months after official diagnosis, 4 months into "Treatment" There's been alot of firsts since then , July 4th, Labor Day, Thanksgiving, Xmas, NY, and now her birthday, Easter and Mother's Day are coming.. I think this…
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depression a year after chemo
A year after finishing chemo and surguries and the like, I have come to the realization that I must be depressed. I have looked around on the internet and found it is quite common even well after the cancer has gone. I blame myself for being the cause of all my family's misfortune. (we lost everything had to move back home…
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18 and afraid
I am ashley I am 18 and currently have brain cancer. After surviving many agressive treatments to get rid of leukemia and later ovarian cancer I was given a brain cancer diagnosis. I must say I am afraid to lose this battle but I will keep fighting for as long as i can. Everything happens for a reason and God gives…
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chat room
How can we help when the chat room that helps all that are new cant get in get it right CSN been 3 years but nothing but problems find a new chat server we have done it on our own many times when it is down but that wasnt your goal right now you have done alot to leave others out fix it it was sapose to be a room where we…
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In Loving Memory of My Dad
Hello All, I would like to post in loving memory of my dad, Ray, who put up a wonderful fight against esophageal cancer, with mets to his liver for 16 months. He was brave, strong, and determined. He passed away at home on 3/9/10. May he rest in peace, until we meet again. Love you always and forever, Daddy's Little Girl,…
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Hi, I need advice, from someone knowageable.
Hi, My father has termanal cancer, they have given him 6 months. The thing is My sisters and one brother and I never saw him alot these past few years, and I think now that he is dieing,My other brother that lived next to him and is his caregiver, is trying to keep us away from him. We have all seen him in the last 3 weeks…
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This is just getting worse.
I lost my mom, my best friend almost 2 months ago. She had been diagnosed 18 days before that with mets to lungs, liver, adrenal gland, etc etc etc. She went from being completely self sufficient and living alone to unable to turn herself in bed. She told me she wanted to go so I put her into hospice. She passed in my…
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How do you have happy talk about an unknown future?
I am having a problem discussing things outside the Cancer Land arena with my husband. He has had 3 lung surgeries since 2005 and is now in chemo. He's doing well. He's 68, I'm 61. I am trying to talk to him about things that may seem trivial to him, but to me are some of the glue that holds me together. I need to think of…
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Angriest woman in the world
Some of you have probably seen my posts here and there. A brief synopsis, mother diag. with Stage IV uterine cancer in Feb. 09. in June 09 she passed away 4 mos. into treatment (chemo) a treatment we were told was working. Well it didn't work. not for her. She was 79 yrs old. I have been and continue to be very angry. I…
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Future thinking
I'm really in a lot of pain when it comes to thinking out loud about things my husband and I could/might do together once chemo is over and he is hopefully doing better. Of course all of that is implied. Nothing is certain. So when I talk about the summer house, or a trip to Costa Rica or just going somewhere - anywhere -…
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POEM: " OUR JOURNEY WITH CANCER " ( husband & wife both have cancer )
Does anyone know, Does anyone care, that every feeling inside me is screaming in despair.... I try to be strong as the day goes on, Try to keep it right, hold on tight, all thru the long and tiring night... Cancer is a nightmare that won't go away, Call from the Dr. saying you need chemo right away, The saying is that time…
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Glass Half Empty
My mom has a rare form of uterine cancer (UPSC) that has relapsed quickly and aggressively. The oncologists did not beat around the bush in that the prognosis with recurrence is poor. Everything I have read online is grim. I am struggling to maintain a positive attitude. People keep saying that if we just "think positive"…
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healing and starting over........
Dating......Finding a new partner after this experience is a whole new catagory I can't find on personal dating sites. I want to meet someone who has experienced cancer or has someone in their lives who understands what it's like to survive this. No one else understands. It's like an exclusive club, one you never wanted to…
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Mother of 3 small children and TERRIFIED to get autologous stem cell transplant!!!!
I am a 28 year-old mother/wife of 3 small children. I was diagnosed with Cutaneous Peripharel TCell Lymphoma and went through 8 rounds of CHOP chemotherapy. I went into remission quickly and stayed in remission for one year. Just recently I was told I have a recurrence and will need an autologous stem cell transplant. I am…
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Survivor's Daughter - Introduction
I'm so glad to have found this board, I feel that it is helping me stay sane through this unbelievably difficult time. My mother (age 57) was diagnosed with Stage III UPSC (rare and aggressive type of uterine cancer) in July 2008. She had a hysterectomy/oopherectomy, internal/external radiation and a course of…
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Setting up alternative chatroom if CSN down
I don't know if anyone is interested in doing this but do you guys think it would be an idea to maybe use another site to chat in if this one is down for any length of time? I know of one other cancer chat that has a chatroom situation that I can offer up perhaps, just til CSN gets back online? The site is a faily new…
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my mom in law
when my mother in law was first told she was free of cancer she had problems. her consulor told her this she said it was true for her that she was so busy learn to die and so busy taking care of all the bussiness she had to do putting her things in order that she forgot how to live. of that was before ptsd. looking back i…