CSN Login
Members Online: 8

You are here

Grief and Bereavement

bmindful
Posts: 1
Joined: Jul 2017

1 year Anniversary in September

Hi,

I lost my darling boyfriend to melanoma last September.  His time from diagnosis to death was an astonishing 2 months.  I believe that I was mercifully numb fo the first few months.  What followed, and what lingers is a very deep sadness that leaves me feeling exhausted and hollowed out.  

JosephK
Posts: 24
Joined: Jun 2017

2 Months Today

My Karen took her last breath 2 months ago today (May 12th, 2017). She passed away due to Metastatic Breast Cancer spreading to her lungs. That day and vision of her still haunt me. Although it's been 2 months the emptiness and lost feelings have not subsided. I've been to counseling i.e. Grief Share, a Grief group for men and 1 on 1 counseling. It has helped but the pain of her no longer existing feels like a knife slowly slicing through my heart. She was my best friend, girlfriend, fiance, my Rock, my companion, my confidant, my lover and my world.

david54
Posts: 167
Joined: Apr 2009

Marathon

I ran a full marathon (RocknRoll) in San Diego 2 weeks ago to honor my two wives( 2010 and 2016) that faced their mortality with courage, faith, and diligence. I wore their (wedding) rings around my neck, and dedicated "For Bonnie" on my runners bib. 

Never had run a full marathon before, dang near killed me-lol!

But this is how i try to move forward, don't regret it, but won't run another again.

 

JosephK
Posts: 24
Joined: Jun 2017

Our Last Months Together

I lost my girlfriend (Karen) of 16 years to Metastatic breast cancer after a 6 year battle on May 12th 2017 at 4:41PM eastern Time.  She was only 59. I have not stopped crying since the day she went into ICU 5 days prior. In October of 2016 she had an emergency CT scan and discovered the cancer had spread to her lungs. She was tough and stated that it was just "a bump in the road". When we got the results of the scan I had that feeling of doom although with her optimism I could not help but feel the same way after that doomed feeling disipated.

WonderWoman2017
Posts: 3
Joined: May 2017

Losing a second Husband to Cancer

It's crazy to think I will lose a second Husband to Cancer. Surviving a Spouse was hard enough, surviving the lose of two is inconceivable. I lost my first husband to Liver Cancer at 32, waited 14 long years to start dating again, and then married a High School friend just 4 short years ago. He was diagnosed with Bladder Cancer 1 1/2 years ago, had his bladder removed and it has now spread to his Liver and several other areas. How am I supposed to do this again? The first time I knew I had to keep going as my young children depended on me and I had to support them.

david54
Posts: 167
Joined: Apr 2009

5 months on the 22nd

Hi-its been a few months since I posted here. First I want to thank all of you for your kind support, I don't think I have acknolwdged that as much as I could and should have.

It has been 5 months since my spouses death-feels like much longer because of the deep level of grief. People have asked me if its any easier, that is a hard question to answer. Is it easier than last December? Yes. But it's ony been 5 months. Nights are the most difficult, the lonliness creeps up like a hiding tiger.

LonelyOnly
Posts: 11
Joined: Jul 2016

Diagnosis Anniversary

There will forever be so many significant dates in my life, especially pertaining to my mother. The day she died - Mar. 11. Her birthday - Jan. 23. My birthday - Oct. 17. And many other celebrations and holidays whose festivities will be blunted by the absence of my mom - Mother's Day, Thanksgiving, Hannukah...

star68
Posts: 3
Joined: Apr 2017

My mum passed away and still have a lots of doubts about her death

My mum passed away from colorectal cancer almost a month ago. My mum was an independent 87 year old, she was diagnosed with stage III (cT3cN1M0) superior colorectal cancer in October. It was an invasive adenocarcinoma, with an enlargement of the rectum wall.

They did all the tests (including PET scan in December) and said there was no metastasis. Oncologist decided to treat it as palliative intention with low dose of radiotherapy treatment for four weeks. 

LonelyOnly
Posts: 11
Joined: Jul 2016

Grieving with cremation

I just wanted to put this out there in case anyone else is experiencing (or has experienced) this. My mom passed away about a week and a half ago. Both sides of my family typically do burials after death so this was my first experience with it. It's already so hard to lose someone close to you, but to just get a call on a Monday that her "cremains" are ready to pick up...

CSN_Anne
Posts: 41
Joined: Sep 2016

Private Message Spam

Hello everyone,

Thank you to all of you who have alerted us to the PM spamming from earlier today. I apologize for the inconvenience. While we do have securities in place, we are not always able to catch all spam, and we are trying to figure out how this one got around our system. If you received a message from jegac1 please do respond to it or share any of your information.

Jegac1 has now been blocked from the CSN site.

Again, I am sorry for the inconvenience. Please continue to report any email spammers or questionable behavior you see.

Best regards,

Pages

Subscribe to RSS - Grief and Bereavement