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Fox Loves You!!!

Karma David and family. So sorry.

I do not remember much of this year. I have failed every treatment when they all used to work. My memory and comprehension have been affected by brain mets. Very forgetful. I don't have a clue to the date.... I am also down about 100 pounds. Extremely weak througout my body.  Arms and hands don't work. This is all 1 finger typing which will take an hour or 2. My walking is ok on level but I need some help on steps. Fortunately I haven't fallen.

I have been able to once again accept the trauma from metastatic cancer. The disease is costing me my life but not this week.  I think people don't really see the physical damage from cancer. The heart, lung, brain, bone, and muscle all get hit with more than they can tolerate creating permanant damage. But sometimes what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

I will take a month or so and decide on a plan. It will be about QOL not long term survival. I won that game for almost 7 1/2 years!











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Hi Fox 

I haven't posted before but I have followed this page for a long time. You have so much knowledge off this disease and you have shared freely with the members here. I wish you peace and strength to make the best decisions for you. Keeping you in my prayers.


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...are heading your way.  I am a short-timer on this board, but have felt and seen your impact here.  Thank you for being here and being such a strong advocate...such an uplifting poster...and using your time to help others with this strange and scary journey we've all been thrust into.

Whatever decisions you make, I hope they bring you peace and comfort.  I also hope you can kick this in the *** again and be here for another 7 1/2 years.


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Hey Foxy baby !!! No wonder you have been on my mind of late! I even checked to see if you are ever online, even when you don't post. 

Glad you posted today! I don't know if you HAVE to type yourself, or if you could ask someone

to do it for you. But nontheless, happy to SEE YOU TODAY!

You know you can have hospice before your body is actually ready to go. They work for YOU! They may have some helpful tools and are a support for you and your wife. 

Either way, I JUST LOVE YOU, more and more and more and more and more!!!!!!!!!

Healing hugs, 


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Love you Fox and so glad to see your post. You're always in my thoughts. xo

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just glad to see you posting but tough to read your situation; like others, I check on you every day. You are one very special guy. Please check in when you can and by the way, it’s Friday, September 14th


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Think about it...it's amazing what one finger can do.  We all appreciated hearing from you, know matter what is happening.  Glad this week is being nice to you.

We drove to Bellingham, WA for a grandson's college soccer game and passed a number of Harley Dealerships.  And a lot of the groups like to ride down US Hwy 101.  I think ot you every time I see a Harley.  I know you can't ride now, but go out and catch the wind from Hurricane Florence blowing thru your hair and pretend you're riding

Lots of Love,


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Hey Donna, wish I would have known... I live 20 minutes from Bellingham! Next time...


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I think of you daily as well, and have been wondering how you're doing. You're the strongest person I know. You keep it all real.

You're getting ready to FLY and what a trip it will be!

Thank you for checking in with us. You know how much it means to all of us.

Fly, Fox, Fly.

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I'm really glad you posted this today. I think about you and wonder how your doing. My heart goes out to you and your family. You've been through so much. I can't imagine what your going through,  but you have everyone on here praying for you and sending nothing but love your way! I joined the club in January, you were there for me in the begining of my journey. Thank you for all your advice and knowledge. Take care my friend.



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Very nice to hear from Fox. You epitomize the immortal words of Jimmy Valvano:

"Cancer can take away all my physical abilities. It cannot touch my mind, it cannot touch my heart, and it cannot touch my soul. Those three things are going to carry on forever."

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Hi Fox,

Thinking about you. We both started on here pretty close to the same time. I'm still doing my best. I'm on drugs 10 and 11 at the 7 year mark. It's not easy that's for sure. You've helped a lot of people on here, including me. I wish you the best with your decision. Peace, David

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Fly fox! peace be with you.

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You've inspired me since I first found this place. Your strength and determination amaze me. You remain in my thoughts; I wish you the best QOL possible and comfort during the rough days. You continue to inspire and support us, even when it's difficult for you . You are a one-of-a-kind, Fox. I think we're all better off, and dealing with our own cancers as best we can, thanks to the amazing example you've set. Fly when the time is right, and know you've done some major good and given hope to a lot of people.


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Sometime lurker, infrequent poster here. 

You've been an inspration.


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Fox, you were one of the first to reach out to me after I was first diagnosed. You have been on my mind lots here lately. Your ability to live your life always on your terms is encouraging. 

Please know that I am always pulling for you and sending all my love and positive energy your way.


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You have always been the first to reach out to those with challanging diagnosis. May they all look to your inspiration.





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And we love Fox!

No matter what you choose - you are a winner. We are thinking of you

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Thanks for making the effort to post and let us know how things are going we are all in your corner with this. 

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Dearest Fox,

You also were one of the very first people who reached out to help me. You can look back and know how many people you have touched and given strength to. May all your good Karma come to now in your journey to comfort you. You are very loved.

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to a special special guy

days are tough

but no one tougher than you

peace and love 




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Don't question your strength - with one finger, you managed to get a post from this lurker.  : )

For the 5 and 1/2 yrs that I've been reading - thank you!

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wishing that pain spares you and that you are surrounded by lots and lots of love.  There's a lot of love and heartfelt emotions, gratitude and admiration going your way and eternal gratitude for all you have done for so many of us...

Love you Fox

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Peace and love be with you.

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And always will be

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Praying hard for you and your wife. Thank you for sharing your knowledge.  

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You've inspired a lot of souls. May you find peace in whatever decision you make. God bless and prayers for clear mind as you think of your game plan. 

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You’ve been a lighthouse in this forum for a long time my friend. You have been and continue to be an inspiration and we are collectively, as a group, better for it. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Chad & Pam

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My dear Foxy,

You have been such an inspiration to us all here to help us fight this terrible disease. I am honoured to know you, and my heart is full of love for you. Your strength is amazing. I pray that our love for your surrounds you and comforts you.

Much love to you and sending you my biggest hugs.




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Hi Fox, you are one of the legend here and have been leading all the new comers on this fight. I am sure those who gave you the initial prognosis have dropped their jaws on the floor on how you managed to won this game! The knowledge you provided have helped and will help thousands to fight this game as well.

I wish you and your family peace.

Thank you!

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...for your peace of mind.  You've been a great help and inspiration to this entire board and especially to our family.


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As others have noted. You advised me to forget the impending scar and focus on beer and pizza when I first asked for help here. Whatever is ahead for you sending positive thoughts to you and your loved ones.

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For me it's the beginning of a new year-may this year bring you comfort and peace and the strength to enjoy your loved ones and appreciate your blessings-June

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You have left a legacy here on this forum board.  You have been an inspiration as we walked through this journey with you.  When we were fearful, I would tell my husband about your journey to strengthen him and give him hope.  I love your wit and determination.  I remember one of the 1st posts I read that you wrote was that having cancer was like having a song stuck in your head.  Even on your best days it is still in your mind.  Keep fighting and posting.  We are all praying for you!

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So glad to see your post today! Your steadfastness and courage has been such an inspiration to me the almost six years I've been reading and posting here. I really appreciate your get real attitude and honesty in posting how you are doing with this damn disease. It's such a gift you keep giving this community.

I wish for you all that's good. Keep on keeping on and FLY.


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Foxy, I am giving you my permission to feel ANYTHING you want, in an way you want!

You don't have to be strong.

You don't have to do anything for anyone but yourself. 

This is YOUR life, your journey. 

BUT you must notice how much LOVE is pouring out and surrounding you. 

Let US be your strength.

Let US be your inspiration

Let us follow your legacy~


Healing, Hopeful, loving



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Fox, thank you for continuing to share your experiences with us even through these difficult days for you.

At some time or other we will all face what you are now facing, and will hopefully benefit from your insight, just like we have all done up to this stage.

Stay cool, man.

Peace and best wishes as always, Fred

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I am not sure what made me log in today, it has been a while since I have stopped by. Glad I am able to wish you all the best and thank you for your support. No shame in the winning record you have vs. This horrible disease. 

All the best to you always!


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ElF! Hey there! Glad to see you push forward to write is. Cancer doesn't know who it is messing with!

Even though you have so much going on, and you feel your brain isn't up to par, your expressions couldn't be clearer or better! Thank you for sharing with us. You are and always will be our inspiration to stand tall and fight hard!

Praying for comfort and peace and easy days for you. Love you very much and hope something comes up that you can try. Don't give up!  Hugs, prayers and good thoughts to the strongest man I know and admire. My Foxy!  -Ange




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Thank you so much for posting. No one else has the words you do. I hope you can feel the love coming to you from us all. 

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You have been and continue to be an inspiration to me.

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Thank you  all your information and great care for everyone. 

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Thanks for posting and sharing. Like everyone else here, you are an inspiration. I always look forward to your good advice and humor too. I will keep you in my prayers and pray that the remaining time you have is filled with wonder and love and with whatever you wish. Love to you and your family.

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...and you are dear to all of us.  I'm a relative newcomer but have benefitted greatly from your shared information and honest accounting of your experiences.  I'll add my voice to the many others who send gratitude and peace.  You are a pillar of strength and wisdom for all of us.  Take care -

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Hope everything goes as well as it can for you. You never know if an advancement or clinical trial makes things better. Hurry up science!

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Dear Fox

You're an inspiration to me. It's been four years and you're the one I always admired.

Thank you for great care you have for every one in need

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You are an inspiration to all of us.  Stay strong and FLY!

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Fox!! So much respect for you my friend. Much love!

angec's picture
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How are you Foxy?? I know you are still giving hell! Thinking of you! Love you!

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Hi Fox, you were one of the first people I started talking to on this board 6 years ago and always enjoyed reading your posts.  Hoping the best for you and you have been in my thoughts.  Peace brother.  


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