Trying to wean myself from forums for a while....

PatchAdams
PatchAdams Member Posts: 271
in Colorectal Cancer #1

I'm NED for over 2 years now and have found that when I come and read posts about symptoms or reccurences, I go into a real tailspin of anxiety.  I've talked with a therapist who has insisted that I need to stop fixating on cancer and try to get on with my life.  She says I have PTSD and have developed Health Anxiety (I call it hypochondria).  She has pretty much told me I MUST avoid these forums and any googling.  

I removed all my friends, old messages and personal info and asked CSN to remove my account so I'd have to re register to comment but they haven't responded. That's been about a week now. I've also tried to figure out how to block this website and Daily Strength so I can't pull them up unless I were to go back in and unblock them, but keep getting an error. 

I was able to NOT come here 100 times a day before my recurrence. In fact, I didn't sign on for a couple of years and only checked in if one of our friends told me something by email that I wanted to read or check up on.  That all fell apart when I got sick again. 

Anyhow, I wanted to tell y'all this in hopes that my confession will help me avoid the board.  

Wish you all well, 

Patty

 

 

 

Comments

  • jen2012
    jen2012 Member Posts: 1,607 Member
    #2
    Patty, I think that's a good

    Patty, I think that's a good idea.   Thanks for all of your support and I hope you can come back once a year to let us know you are doing well.

     

    Best to you!

    Jen

  • janderson1964
    janderson1964 Member Posts: 2,215 Member
    #3
    You have to do what is best

    You have to do what is best for you. We will miss you. I wish you continued good health and hopefully some peace.

  • CSN_Emily
    CSN_Emily Member Posts: 42
    #4

    I will have this taken care of for you. I am responding to your email today as well.

     

    thanks,

    CSN_Emily

  • Trubrit
    Trubrit Member Posts: 5,796 Member
    #5
    Your the most important

    I know we talk about support and sharing, but when push comes to shove, your health and wellbeing are the most important thing. I know what you mean about the anxiety. At one point, if I saw the word reoccuracne in the subject line, I would not open it. 

    My most sincere wishes for your continued health. You will be missed, but we care for enough to let you go (gosh, that seemed like I was giving you permission. I didn't mean it to sound that way)

    many blessings for your future. 

  • Lisa2012
    Lisa2012 Member Posts: 142
    #6
    Good to hear

    I find this post to be really good news.   Ironic that when people join we welcome them and wish that they didn't have to be here.  Now we have a member who needs to leave because she is NED!  Let's CELEBRATE!

  • marbleotis
    marbleotis Member Posts: 720 Member
    #7
    All the best

    Just take care of yourself and exhale! 

    Everytime you are tempted to go online - just go for a nice walk.

    NED is great and you should be enjoying it not feeling anxiety.

  • Sundanceh
    Sundanceh Member Posts: 4,392 Member
    #8
    Completely Understand

    You have to do what is best for you.  That is the important thing.  Best wishes going forward.  I will miss you and thank you for all of your support.  Stop by every so often to let us all know how  you're doing. 

    You take care.

    -Craig

  • UncleBuddy
    UncleBuddy Member Posts: 1,019 Member
    #9
    Thank you for your support and information.

    We all wish you the best! Have a happy, healthy, cancer-free life!

    Lin

  • traci43
    traci43 Member Posts: 773 Member
    #10
    I understand, been in the same situation

    I have been coming and going for a while on this board as well because I can get really anxious especially if my CEA is rising.  I hope things continue to go well for you and you remain NED.

  • Chelsea71
    Chelsea71 Member Posts: 1,169 Member
    #11
    I totally understand.  I wish

    I totally understand.  I wish you well.  Take care.

     

    Chelsea

  • DD3
    DD3 Member Posts: 136 Member
    #12
    You

    hit the nail on the head Patch.  I'm a just a caretaker and there are some threads I won't open.  I get anxious for my wife when I see re-occurence and etc in a thread title.  Hence, why I am spotty around here at times.  Take care of yourself.  God bless.

  • Helen321
    Helen321 Member Posts: 1,459 Member
    #13
    I saw you got removed and now

    I saw you got removed and now you're back=} Hard isn't it? It's as if we've been thrown into another world that is unstable at times and so we cling to those who understand. I take breaks from the boards alsi. It's gardening season so it'll be easier. When I first came on I was so scared with what I was reading but now I only read in bits and pieces. The fun posts are breaking up the stress a bit also.

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