My mom was sick and i stayed away. My mother allowed my brother/abuser/crackead into her house and as a mom of two little ones i stayed away. Mom thought she had the flu but it wouldn't go away. I started a fight with my brother so he left and I found my mom confused, skinny, limping and hardly able to hold a conversation. I called her doc. On the first day of school she was admitted with tumors in her brain and lung. That was a tues, they scheduled surgery for the brain tumor for that fri. The night before her surgery my brother called my mom at the hospital to say he was back. I had to call the police and i had my brother removed from her house.
Mom has made a remarkable recovery and i have my mom back. I have my mom back but she has stage 4 lung cancer. So now i get to see her recover and get sick all at the same time.
I know i am blessed-it could be worse. I want to stay grateful but i just want time to stop, i want to put my mom in my pocket and keep her safe and hide her from cancer. I wont leave her side...my brother took advantage of her, i guess i'll have to deal with him and that situation too-one day. Oh and no my brother has not contacted my mother again-not post surgery or even on her 60th birthday. It's all me, she is not married and isn't that close to her siblings. I resent them, i'm starting to feel angry and sad alot. I feel like i want to be with mom all the time and when i'm not i feel guilty.
My husband and kids need me too- i feel like i'm on a rollar coaster and a tightrope all at the same time.