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"I hurt myself today"

soccerfreaks's picture

(Johnny Cash reference)

Just as I was posting what I thought was a funny thing about me and my dog, I learned that a dear friend had passed away. In CSN (Cancer Survivor Network) we knew him as Ezekiah or, as I called him, Zeke.

It seems it was only a few days ago that he posted a pic of himself in the hospital, confident that he would be getting out and doing a bit of home care before moving on with his life.

I took him at his word, because he has always been an honest man, sometimes a brutally honest man, but always a kind man.

I remember that early on in our relationship, I called him an SOB, assuming it is of standard usage now and was certainly not meant to offend him. He did take umbrage with it, he DID take it as a severe slight against his mother, and I had to consider that sensitivity and literal understanding of words when we spoke in the future, which we did often once he forgave me :).

I remember that he loved his wife so much, long after she had passed away from cancer herself, that he would infrequently simply post something in her honor, a remembrance and a signature of his abiding love, which I respected greatly.

I remember that he had great pride in his children and adored his grandkids, and that he loved Michigan, and that he loved his former life as a big rig driver apparently of many varieties.

And I remember his love for me, and for others in CSN, and how his loyalty, once earned, was forever without doubt.

He could be a curmudgeon and I sometimes wondered how much of that was real and how much was staged, especially for the ladies, It didn't matter. The ones I knew who knew him loved him as I do.

This world has lost a gentle man and I am in tears.


medi_2's picture

R.I.P. Zeke.

tufi000's picture

ty Joe well said
goodby Eze

allmost60's picture

Rest in peace Zeke...I will miss you. Makes for a sad day. He friended me at a time when I was needing much comfort. Strangers, but yet connected. Love...Sue
(FNHL-stg3-dx 6/10)

Thanks Joe for posting this about Zeke, I also read his about me page and expression posts and hadn't seen anything from him for several months now. Dan

Didn't have the priviledge of knowing Zeke. Wasn't sure if I should invade your post...but have also felt the loss of another cancer survivor who was amazing. All my warmest wishes are with you all that loved this dear soul. Katie

catcon49's picture

I also didn't have the pleasure of knowing him. But I am sure if you spoke very highly of him, he must have been a stand up guy, that I would have liked to know. I find it very difficult to lose friends from CSN. Even though I haven't met any of them, there is still a very close bond, unfortunately cancer, but never the less a bond.

Rest in peace.


RE's picture

I miss him!


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