Very recently diagnosed w/ Cancer - Scared and Mad!
The biopsy report yesterday also says; 'poorly differentiated adenocarcinoma - and from what I've read online, that's a grade 3 cancer, just one step down from the fastest growing cancer, yet my first oncologist visit won't be for two weeks - and that's if my insurance gets squared away on Monday! I can't believe this is happening and that I have to wait so long to get treatment on something that must be very fast growing because it wasn't there nine months ago! I feel like I better get ready to die because in two weeks time it might grow/spread so much I'll have very little chance of surviving this! Why do they say you need to catch cancer early to have the best chances, then make you wait so long to get treatment?!
I'm sorry to vent, I'm just sooo mad right now! And scared.
Comments
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take a deep breath
Cyber hug to you. There is alot of information on the internet which is a blessing and a curse. I have sarcoma of the breast which is very rare and can be very difficult to treat according to the internet. Paniced I freaked out when they told me I could not get in for 6 weeks to an oncologist. Thankfully I talked to a surgeon who walked me through the process. Today I am much better than I was when I first heard the news but I understand why you are mad. Update us and let us know how you are doing. Even if it is to vent.0 -
Welcome to our boards.
I am sorry that you need to be here but I'm sure you will be glad you found us. Everyone here is very supportive and willing to share experiences. What you are feeling now is what each of us felt in one way or another when we were first dx'd. Please try to keep a positive attitude (I know it's hard). We will be here with you through your journey.
Hugs,
Georgia0 -
Sounds Like Me
In 10/2009 I was laying in bed and felt lumps in my right armpit. At first I wasn't sure if the right was different from the left. I decided it was different AND decided the lumps were growing. Cancer was not even on my radar. I went to my ob/gyn who sent me for a mammogram. Nothing was seen in the breast tissue but way out at the edges they thought there was something unusual in the lymph nodes. An ultrasound followed, breast MRI,PET/CT scan, and then an excision biopsy. After that came the axillary dissection. It wasn't until the surgeon sent a sample for a Tissue of Origin Test that it was determined that I had a poorly differentiated adenocarcinoma of the breast. Nothing was ever found in the breast tissue itself - just in the axillary lymph nodes. This is considered Stage IIa, Grade 3. In addition, the pathology report said it was a triple negative cancer.
I had a right mastectomy in 2/2010. I had a port put in 3/2010 and began chemotherapy. I had 4 rounds of A/C and 12 rounds of Taxotere. My last chemo was in 8/2010. I did not have radiation. I have had 2 reconstruction surgeries. My oncologist sees me every 3 months and says I am on "observation status" only.
It is definitely overwhelming when you get a cancer diagnosis. There is SO much to learn. I personally believe that knowledge is power. The more you know about what is going on the better prepared you are to deal with it. Read. I recommend the book by Dr. Susan Love. Ask questions. In most cases a 2 week delay in seeing an oncologist will not make a great deal of difference as to survivability. Your doctor will discuss a treatment plan with you. Chemo/Surgery/Radiation/Hormones - what type and in what sequence. While I was in active treatment it felt good to know the drugs were being pumped in to poison the little suckers. It is OK to be scared. This is a journey into the unknown for most of us.
Been there. Done that. Keep posting. We will be glad to chime in and help out.
IRENE0 -
Anger!!
I don't blame you for being angry...sometimes it is also a way to start recovering so go for it! If your insurance gets set on Monday I would call and say you must be seen right away, usually if you are a little pushy they will get you in. I am very lucky, I have already walked in with no appointment and said I just needed to speak with my doc breifly and at least got to talk to his assistant if not him. Please don't let your mind get to you, my guess is you are stronger than that. Like said, tho there is a wealth of info on line, it doesn't neccesarily pertain specificly to your case, so wait till you have actually talked to the doc. We will be waiting to hear how all goes, and praying you get the quick care you deserve!0 -
nothing usefuljessiesmom1 said:Sounds Like Me
In 10/2009 I was laying in bed and felt lumps in my right armpit. At first I wasn't sure if the right was different from the left. I decided it was different AND decided the lumps were growing. Cancer was not even on my radar. I went to my ob/gyn who sent me for a mammogram. Nothing was seen in the breast tissue but way out at the edges they thought there was something unusual in the lymph nodes. An ultrasound followed, breast MRI,PET/CT scan, and then an excision biopsy. After that came the axillary dissection. It wasn't until the surgeon sent a sample for a Tissue of Origin Test that it was determined that I had a poorly differentiated adenocarcinoma of the breast. Nothing was ever found in the breast tissue itself - just in the axillary lymph nodes. This is considered Stage IIa, Grade 3. In addition, the pathology report said it was a triple negative cancer.
I had a right mastectomy in 2/2010. I had a port put in 3/2010 and began chemotherapy. I had 4 rounds of A/C and 12 rounds of Taxotere. My last chemo was in 8/2010. I did not have radiation. I have had 2 reconstruction surgeries. My oncologist sees me every 3 months and says I am on "observation status" only.
It is definitely overwhelming when you get a cancer diagnosis. There is SO much to learn. I personally believe that knowledge is power. The more you know about what is going on the better prepared you are to deal with it. Read. I recommend the book by Dr. Susan Love. Ask questions. In most cases a 2 week delay in seeing an oncologist will not make a great deal of difference as to survivability. Your doctor will discuss a treatment plan with you. Chemo/Surgery/Radiation/Hormones - what type and in what sequence. While I was in active treatment it felt good to know the drugs were being pumped in to poison the little suckers. It is OK to be scared. This is a journey into the unknown for most of us.
Been there. Done that. Keep posting. We will be glad to chime in and help out.
IRENE
for the discussion, mine is DCIS. I wanted to encourage our new member to hang in there. It's scarey, strange, maddening sometimes painful, exhausting and other adjectives I haven't thought of. But the folks in pink on this board will help you get through it. And when someone says something thoughtless, stupid, or hurtful this is a safe place to vent and talk to people who know how you feel because we have been there.
And Jessie's Mom, I love the dog picture--did he ever succeed in getting 3 in his mouth?
Maureen0 -
Welcome
I'm so sorry for what you're going through! It's so crazy when you start on this journey. We've all been there - I thought I was going off my rocker! It's like wanting to scream out to the whole world that I had cancer and doesn't anybody see I have cancer! My first suggestion is not to read the internet - I felt like I should pick my funeral music etc. It can really cheer you up - right? None of this beginning stuff goes fast enough once you've found out what's going on. You just want to do something to get rid of this - it's like an alien invader or termites... Although I didn't hear alot that the oncol. was saying (the room seemed to be spinning), I finally was moving forward. Take someone with you and have them take notes and stay sane for you so they can listen. Scream here for help - we're all out here for you.
Prayers sent for you and hugs to you!
Karen0 -
That does sound similar to me, Jessiesmom1jessiesmom1 said:Sounds Like Me
In 10/2009 I was laying in bed and felt lumps in my right armpit. At first I wasn't sure if the right was different from the left. I decided it was different AND decided the lumps were growing. Cancer was not even on my radar. I went to my ob/gyn who sent me for a mammogram. Nothing was seen in the breast tissue but way out at the edges they thought there was something unusual in the lymph nodes. An ultrasound followed, breast MRI,PET/CT scan, and then an excision biopsy. After that came the axillary dissection. It wasn't until the surgeon sent a sample for a Tissue of Origin Test that it was determined that I had a poorly differentiated adenocarcinoma of the breast. Nothing was ever found in the breast tissue itself - just in the axillary lymph nodes. This is considered Stage IIa, Grade 3. In addition, the pathology report said it was a triple negative cancer.
I had a right mastectomy in 2/2010. I had a port put in 3/2010 and began chemotherapy. I had 4 rounds of A/C and 12 rounds of Taxotere. My last chemo was in 8/2010. I did not have radiation. I have had 2 reconstruction surgeries. My oncologist sees me every 3 months and says I am on "observation status" only.
It is definitely overwhelming when you get a cancer diagnosis. There is SO much to learn. I personally believe that knowledge is power. The more you know about what is going on the better prepared you are to deal with it. Read. I recommend the book by Dr. Susan Love. Ask questions. In most cases a 2 week delay in seeing an oncologist will not make a great deal of difference as to survivability. Your doctor will discuss a treatment plan with you. Chemo/Surgery/Radiation/Hormones - what type and in what sequence. While I was in active treatment it felt good to know the drugs were being pumped in to poison the little suckers. It is OK to be scared. This is a journey into the unknown for most of us.
Been there. Done that. Keep posting. We will be glad to chime in and help out.
IRENE
I guess I do need a book because I don't know what a port is, but I don't like the sound of it. I'm worried about the 2 week delay because I first felt the lump the day after Mother's Day - it felt about the size of a little robin's egg. By the next Monday, it was definitely bigger. Now it's about the size of a small egg you can buy at the grocery store. I'm afraid of how big it will be in two more weeks.
I hate that everyone has to be on here, but I'm glad there is such a place to go. My friends and family all think I'm being strong but I'm trying to protect my family and figure my friends don't really want all the negativity this brings. Besides, they can't possibly understand what I'm going thru right now.
I'm still trying to figure out how this site works. Replying is strange, I can't seem to comment to everyone at once, so forgive me if I put my reply's in the wrong place.0 -
ksf56, I felt a lot of the same.ksf56 said:Welcome
I'm so sorry for what you're going through! It's so crazy when you start on this journey. We've all been there - I thought I was going off my rocker! It's like wanting to scream out to the whole world that I had cancer and doesn't anybody see I have cancer! My first suggestion is not to read the internet - I felt like I should pick my funeral music etc. It can really cheer you up - right? None of this beginning stuff goes fast enough once you've found out what's going on. You just want to do something to get rid of this - it's like an alien invader or termites... Although I didn't hear alot that the oncol. was saying (the room seemed to be spinning), I finally was moving forward. Take someone with you and have them take notes and stay sane for you so they can listen. Scream here for help - we're all out here for you.
Prayers sent for you and hugs to you!
Karen
My daughter's 17th birthday was May 31st - two days after I found out I had cancer. I tried to make it a 'normal' day but everything seemed so weird. And I was always running off trying to make phone calls to MD Anderson in Houston in the hopes they would get me in faster. Unfortunately, I missed her birthday cake being brought out (we were at a restaurant) and it didn't go quite right and now I'm mad that I didn't just stay with her to make sure it went smoothly instead of running off on a fruitless endeavor.
Also, I have a son who was diagnosed with Crohn's disease 6 years ago, and has never been able to get it under control. My daughter has to see an endocrinologist and neurologist in July as she may have diabetes and been having fainting spells that they think are unrelated to diabetes. With me having cancer, who is going to take care of them now? I do have a wonderful husband, but he is the only one bringing home the bacon. We are already over $10,000 in medical debt, mostly from my son's disease. Now with my cancer, the news just keeps getting worse.
I do have faith and believe in God, I know this has not happened without Him knowing about it, I just feel so overwhelmed right now. Thanks so much, ladies for being here for me!0 -
About Breast CancerCMW48 said:That does sound similar to me, Jessiesmom1
I guess I do need a book because I don't know what a port is, but I don't like the sound of it. I'm worried about the 2 week delay because I first felt the lump the day after Mother's Day - it felt about the size of a little robin's egg. By the next Monday, it was definitely bigger. Now it's about the size of a small egg you can buy at the grocery store. I'm afraid of how big it will be in two more weeks.
I hate that everyone has to be on here, but I'm glad there is such a place to go. My friends and family all think I'm being strong but I'm trying to protect my family and figure my friends don't really want all the negativity this brings. Besides, they can't possibly understand what I'm going thru right now.
I'm still trying to figure out how this site works. Replying is strange, I can't seem to comment to everyone at once, so forgive me if I put my reply's in the wrong place.
Hi,
One of the most helpful books that I read almost 18 years ago, is still what I consider a great basic explanation for breast cancer and all it involves. The book has been updated many times and what is not included since the last publications is the new chemo therapies that have come out. The book is “Dr. Susan Love's breast book”. It will answer a lot of your questions such as scans, port and etc. She also has a web page. More than likely your public library will have a copy to borrow.
When they say "fast growing" it isn't like an infection when time is extremely important. I do know how it feels to want the darn thing out, out as fast as it can be. A few weeks don't mean a lot in the breast cancer world.
In 2008, a ct scan in mid June showed that my cancer had returned, it was widespread in both lungs, lining around the lung and an effusion in the lining. By the time, I had a PET scan, a visit with the oncologist, thoracic surgeon, biopsy, the pathology report had returned and treatment began, nearly 2 months had elapse. The ct scan I had as I began treatment showed all the cancer had doubled in size. Six weeks after beginning treatment a ct scan showed the cancer had stop growing.
In June of 2009, (1 year later) I was on another kind of treatment and the ct san showed all the tumors (except around 5 of them) had totally disappeared and remained that way until about 1 year ago. When the biopsy was performed the thoracic surgeon stated my lungs & lining were studded with tumors. What I hope to convey to you is that your surgery and treatments will get rid of them.
One worries about metastasis (spreading) the biggest fear of all. My opinion is that if it is going to it will, there is something that allows it go to hibernate and then reawaken months or even many years later. No one knows why that happens. I have learned over the years that the stage (0, 1, 2, 3), the size of the tumor, the nodes (be it no involvement or many nodes 23+) doesn't make a difference. Some will have their cancer return with stage 0, no nodes involved and some with stage 3C and many nodes won't ever have a recurrence. The bottom line, they can't yet predict who will have a return or who won't. One has to remember that 70% won't ever have a recurrence. It does keep those 70% forever a hostage. Every pain will have a thought, “did it return!”. That is the down side.
I am sorry that you might join this club. I am sorry that this post is so long but I wanted to assure you that the few weeks won't make any difference.
Wishing you the best as you go through all this.
Doris0 -
ThanksSIROD said:About Breast Cancer
Hi,
One of the most helpful books that I read almost 18 years ago, is still what I consider a great basic explanation for breast cancer and all it involves. The book has been updated many times and what is not included since the last publications is the new chemo therapies that have come out. The book is “Dr. Susan Love's breast book”. It will answer a lot of your questions such as scans, port and etc. She also has a web page. More than likely your public library will have a copy to borrow.
When they say "fast growing" it isn't like an infection when time is extremely important. I do know how it feels to want the darn thing out, out as fast as it can be. A few weeks don't mean a lot in the breast cancer world.
In 2008, a ct scan in mid June showed that my cancer had returned, it was widespread in both lungs, lining around the lung and an effusion in the lining. By the time, I had a PET scan, a visit with the oncologist, thoracic surgeon, biopsy, the pathology report had returned and treatment began, nearly 2 months had elapse. The ct scan I had as I began treatment showed all the cancer had doubled in size. Six weeks after beginning treatment a ct scan showed the cancer had stop growing.
In June of 2009, (1 year later) I was on another kind of treatment and the ct san showed all the tumors (except around 5 of them) had totally disappeared and remained that way until about 1 year ago. When the biopsy was performed the thoracic surgeon stated my lungs & lining were studded with tumors. What I hope to convey to you is that your surgery and treatments will get rid of them.
One worries about metastasis (spreading) the biggest fear of all. My opinion is that if it is going to it will, there is something that allows it go to hibernate and then reawaken months or even many years later. No one knows why that happens. I have learned over the years that the stage (0, 1, 2, 3), the size of the tumor, the nodes (be it no involvement or many nodes 23+) doesn't make a difference. Some will have their cancer return with stage 0, no nodes involved and some with stage 3C and many nodes won't ever have a recurrence. The bottom line, they can't yet predict who will have a return or who won't. One has to remember that 70% won't ever have a recurrence. It does keep those 70% forever a hostage. Every pain will have a thought, “did it return!”. That is the down side.
I am sorry that you might join this club. I am sorry that this post is so long but I wanted to assure you that the few weeks won't make any difference.
Wishing you the best as you go through all this.
Doris
That is good information to have!0 -
Welcome & You Are Not Alone!!!CMW48 said:ksf56, I felt a lot of the same.
My daughter's 17th birthday was May 31st - two days after I found out I had cancer. I tried to make it a 'normal' day but everything seemed so weird. And I was always running off trying to make phone calls to MD Anderson in Houston in the hopes they would get me in faster. Unfortunately, I missed her birthday cake being brought out (we were at a restaurant) and it didn't go quite right and now I'm mad that I didn't just stay with her to make sure it went smoothly instead of running off on a fruitless endeavor.
Also, I have a son who was diagnosed with Crohn's disease 6 years ago, and has never been able to get it under control. My daughter has to see an endocrinologist and neurologist in July as she may have diabetes and been having fainting spells that they think are unrelated to diabetes. With me having cancer, who is going to take care of them now? I do have a wonderful husband, but he is the only one bringing home the bacon. We are already over $10,000 in medical debt, mostly from my son's disease. Now with my cancer, the news just keeps getting worse.
I do have faith and believe in God, I know this has not happened without Him knowing about it, I just feel so overwhelmed right now. Thanks so much, ladies for being here for me!
Hi CMW48,
I was diagnosed March 2012 with Stage 2 infiltrating duct breast cancer. I knew I had a large tumor before my biopsy, but during the biopsy they found another tumor. Well next I had an MRI and then they found two more tumors. I was millimeters away from my lumpectomy done on May 4th could have turned into a masectomy of my right breast. I had a chemo port installed on May 30th to make chemo easier, since I have difficult rolling veins. I start chemo June 8th. Your pink sisters are here to support you. I try to put up a good front but I must be real I am scared of the unknown. My pink sisters have done wonders to put my mind at ease. Remember ASAP ( Always Say A Prayer), Read the Bible 2 Timothy 1:7 - Fear, Psalms 37 - Worry. You now have many people praying for you. Remember Prayer Changes Things! Remember to relax, rest, have fun when you can, and laugh often.
Peace,Blessings, Hugs, & Laughter,
Stacey0 -
Tennis BallsEveningStar2 said:nothing useful
for the discussion, mine is DCIS. I wanted to encourage our new member to hang in there. It's scarey, strange, maddening sometimes painful, exhausting and other adjectives I haven't thought of. But the folks in pink on this board will help you get through it. And when someone says something thoughtless, stupid, or hurtful this is a safe place to vent and talk to people who know how you feel because we have been there.
And Jessie's Mom, I love the dog picture--did he ever succeed in getting 3 in his mouth?
Maureen
To EveningStar2:
It is a bit hard to tell in the photo but there are FOUR (4) tennis balls in the dog's mouth! My dog is the love of my life. Some times she rates above my husband and 2 college-age children (lol).
IRENE0 -
Dealing with the DiagnosisCMW48 said:ksf56, I felt a lot of the same.
My daughter's 17th birthday was May 31st - two days after I found out I had cancer. I tried to make it a 'normal' day but everything seemed so weird. And I was always running off trying to make phone calls to MD Anderson in Houston in the hopes they would get me in faster. Unfortunately, I missed her birthday cake being brought out (we were at a restaurant) and it didn't go quite right and now I'm mad that I didn't just stay with her to make sure it went smoothly instead of running off on a fruitless endeavor.
Also, I have a son who was diagnosed with Crohn's disease 6 years ago, and has never been able to get it under control. My daughter has to see an endocrinologist and neurologist in July as she may have diabetes and been having fainting spells that they think are unrelated to diabetes. With me having cancer, who is going to take care of them now? I do have a wonderful husband, but he is the only one bringing home the bacon. We are already over $10,000 in medical debt, mostly from my son's disease. Now with my cancer, the news just keeps getting worse.
I do have faith and believe in God, I know this has not happened without Him knowing about it, I just feel so overwhelmed right now. Thanks so much, ladies for being here for me!
My daughter was 17 and a high school senior when I was diagnosed with cancer. My son was 19 and a college sophmore living away from home. My daughter was a varsity cheerleader and the senior cheerleaders were being honored at the last home basketball game of the season. This was 10 days after my mastectomy. I put on my biggest bulkiest sweater (to cover the drains and my lopsided chest) and went to the game. The other cheer moms were so surprised that I was there. How could I not be? This is a big deal in the life of a senior. I made it to her graduation. My husband went to the college orientation with our daughter as I was in the midst of chemo. Chemo was over in August and I made it to the big dorm move-in in September. I wasn't particularly helpful but I like to think that I supervised. I was not able to do the things I would normally have done but I did the best I could.
Don't beat yourself up about the things you didn't or couldn't do. Think about the things you CAN do. Two months after chemo was over I attended Parents Weekend and climbed the steps in a football stadium to reach our seats for the game. It was a huge effort but I know my daughter appreciated it and I was pleased with myself. It was a milestone in my recovery. I think until a treatment plan is in place and underway it is overwhelming. You feel a total lack of control. Once you are taking steps to fight the disease it is easier to handle.
Like you, my husband is the sole support of our family and our health insurance benefits come through his job. When I was diagnosed he was actually out of work and we were paying privately for our insurance. Due to his history as a colon cancer survivor it was extremely expensive and the premiums put our finances into a tailspin. I can definitely relate to your stress.
You are not alone. Many of us here - myself included - have been in your shoes.
IRENE0 -
keep your faith
hello, i just wanted to stop in and say hello and I'm sorry. it's ok to be mad, sad, scared...it's an emotional roller coaster ride, or it has been for me. i was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma back in october. i just had my yearly with my ob/gyn in july, and decided to start taking the birth control pill again because my 15 and 21/2 year old daughter were wearing my out and i didn't want to take any chances on getting pregnant again...lol, my dr always does breast exams and there were no lump...then september 27, 21011, while i was taking a shower, i accidentally felt a lump on the far left side of my left breast...i thought...surely this is nothing..but i called my dr anyway and she got me in the next day and felt it, there was no pain whatsoever,, she said it was probably nothing just a cyst but wanted to have a mammo anyway. i was only 34 years old...i thought this can't happen to me. the next week the radiologist said it looked suspicious, also did and ultrasound and that i had some calcifications around other areas of that breast. so i was sent to a surgeon. he showed me the X-rays, and anyway after a biopsy and mri, fears were confirmed...i was scared to death, to say the least, i did a lot of crying, i decided to have a bilateral mastectomy and that was done october 25, 2011. (ended up having to have a appendectomy the very next day) then a port put in november 21st. then developed a blood clot around the port and ended up back in the hospital for a week, had to reroute the port cath. i finally began chemo on december 8th. my last treatment was march 22nd. i still have to do hereceptin infusions every 3 weeks until december. i will be having a complete hysterectomy in the next month or so, because mine was er/pr + and her2+. i just wanted to give you a little background on myself. It's not an easy journey, but keeping my faith and my relationship with God has grown so much since all of this. i found that praying and knowing that people were praying for me helped me the most and my kids...it scares me...i want to see them grow up..i want to see my grandchildren.... you will be just fine. my advice would be find a doctor that you can really talk to you and that doesn't seem rushed to get out of your room. i love all of my doctors i have, they are very compassionate people. the internet is great for information but also "evil" it can make you worry more. do your homework, that way it won't be as confusing. Good luck to you and if i can help you with anything, just message me. I am so sorry you have to go through this..God Bless and i wall be praying..
Jaime0 -
Shejessiesmom1 said:Tennis Balls
To EveningStar2:
It is a bit hard to tell in the photo but there are FOUR (4) tennis balls in the dog's mouth! My dog is the love of my life. Some times she rates above my husband and 2 college-age children (lol).
IRENE
has got to be a trip. The dark cat in my picture is 17.5 years old. Hopefully, he'll be around for a while but when he goes I'm going to be a basket case. My husband is more afraid of when that time comes than I am!! Gotta love the four footed children.
Maureen0 -
Georgia is right. We haveladyg said:Welcome to our boards.
I am sorry that you need to be here but I'm sure you will be glad you found us. Everyone here is very supportive and willing to share experiences. What you are feeling now is what each of us felt in one way or another when we were first dx'd. Please try to keep a positive attitude (I know it's hard). We will be here with you through your journey.
Hugs,
Georgia
Georgia is right. We have all felt the same way as we've all been in your shoes. That's the great thing about this site, we understand.
Sending you positive thoughts and lots of prayers.
Hugs, Megan0 -
sorry to hear you are going
sorry to hear you are going through this..you have come to the right place to vent, be scared, worried...everyone is great here..
Denise0 -
I can understand why you areCMW48 said:ksf56, I felt a lot of the same.
My daughter's 17th birthday was May 31st - two days after I found out I had cancer. I tried to make it a 'normal' day but everything seemed so weird. And I was always running off trying to make phone calls to MD Anderson in Houston in the hopes they would get me in faster. Unfortunately, I missed her birthday cake being brought out (we were at a restaurant) and it didn't go quite right and now I'm mad that I didn't just stay with her to make sure it went smoothly instead of running off on a fruitless endeavor.
Also, I have a son who was diagnosed with Crohn's disease 6 years ago, and has never been able to get it under control. My daughter has to see an endocrinologist and neurologist in July as she may have diabetes and been having fainting spells that they think are unrelated to diabetes. With me having cancer, who is going to take care of them now? I do have a wonderful husband, but he is the only one bringing home the bacon. We are already over $10,000 in medical debt, mostly from my son's disease. Now with my cancer, the news just keeps getting worse.
I do have faith and believe in God, I know this has not happened without Him knowing about it, I just feel so overwhelmed right now. Thanks so much, ladies for being here for me!
I can understand why you are scared and mad. You have every right to be! I hope that by joining this site, your fear will lessen and you will feel consoled somewhat and know that we do "get it".
I am so sorry for all that has happened to you and your family. I hope your insurance will come thru for you quickly and you can proceed on with what treatments or surgery that you need.
You will be in my prayers and I am sending along lots of hugs!0 -
It is so frustrating whendisneyfan2008 said:sorry to hear you are going
sorry to hear you are going through this..you have come to the right place to vent, be scared, worried...everyone is great here..
Denise
It is so frustrating when you do all the right things and it still doesnt work out. Cancer is a tricky apponet but we are strong pinks! For what its worth my second cancer was not seen on mammo. would yours be viewed on MRI? Mine would have but it wasnt offered and I didnt know to ask. Boy was I pissed off, to put it mildly. Mad at my onc mad at myself as I am a nurse. For what its worth both my cancers were grade 3. Many cancers are like this particularly if you are premenopausal. It does not guanrantee it will spread, it just means you might need chemo. Your pathology determines the treatment you need to live. BTW my first cancer was in 1994, and my second in 2009. Stay here, keep us informed and we will help you get through.0 -
I am so sorry we meet this
I am so sorry we meet this way. Your anger is warranted. However, from the way you wrote your post, I gather that your are quite strong. That anger/energy will help you move forward and make the right decisions.
The ladies here have all given wonderful advice (as always) so there is not much I can add.
What I do want to say is "Keep the Faith. He is with you every step"
I know how hard this is. I think we ALL know how hard this is for you. This site is the best place to be for support and love.
Keep us posted. We are here for you.
God Bless You!
Mary0
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