The hardest thing I have ever had to deal with
About 2 weeks ago, she was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer that has spread to her bones, lungs, and brain. This is obviously a very late stage. My mother is a doctor herself and she's had breast cysts on and off for a while throughout her. My mom was always against chemotherapy so you can understand why she has waited this long. Anyways, the doctors were not able to offer us any conventional treatment and told us to leave the hospital. My mother is now in bed and unable to get out of it. It's the hardest thing to see my mom go through such a thing and the worst feeling is knowing that there isn't much I can do about it.
My mom recently started hallucinating. For example, she would say "someone came and gave me the medication" when in reality, it isn't true. This scares me to death but I have read online that it happens due to cancer having spread to the brain. I'm helpless and I'm sinking into a depression state. I know I have to accept things but I don't know how. I will be 21 years old in a couple of days, I'm not a baby but I feel like I'm a baby that needs her mom. To top it all off, my dad has never really been there for me and has another family so my mother is pretty much my everything all in one. I'm currently visiting her in another country and must return to work because I have been here since May 1st but I really don't want to feel guilty about leaving my mother. It hurts me to see her in this condition which is why sometimes I feel like it's best if I leave.. but then again, I don't want to live with the guilt. I don't have much support here. My mother is surrounded by her sisters and people who take care of her so I would definitely not be leaving her alone. My return ticket is the 27th and I have to be back at work the 28th. My situation is difficult because I'm on my own and have to support myself financially so I need to work to pay rent ect.. Please I need your advice Comments
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What a tough situation all
What a tough situation all around! What country is your mother in? Do they have Hospice? Does the hospital where she was treated have a Social Services department? Both of these could possibly be of help to you both. Be sure you get listed with all her docs, hospitals, and care givers as one who they can give information to about her for when you go home.
Sending prayers for you both!
Angie0 -
Good AdviceAngieD said:What a tough situation all
What a tough situation all around! What country is your mother in? Do they have Hospice? Does the hospital where she was treated have a Social Services department? Both of these could possibly be of help to you both. Be sure you get listed with all her docs, hospitals, and care givers as one who they can give information to about her for when you go home.
Sending prayers for you both!
Angie
So sorry for you to have to be in this spot. Angie gave good advice on having your name on a list to receive information. Most countries have similar rules that way. If your name is not on some list and you call a doc for info on your mom they will not be allowed to give you any. I have a daughter your age and I know that me being sick is also very difficult for her. She not only worries about me, but about her future on all different levels. Most towns have support groups for families of cancer patients that may be very helpful to you when you do get home. Any local doc could help refer one to you, or else the American Cancer Society itself will help. It might be good to meet someone else in the same position as you. Your mom is very lucky to have such a sensitive, caring daughter as you. Although I am older, I lost my mom to complications with Ovarion Cancer eight years ago. I too was very close to her, and it was hard to see her fighting cancer with little help at the time. I don't know what you believe, but my belief is that God has a plan, and although we are not supposed to understand what that is, we are just to have faith that in both good times and bad, we do as much as we humanly can to help one another, and then turn it over to Him and trust that He will handle things. Your mom AND you will be in safe hands. I carry a little dragonfly pin of my moms in my purse, sometimes I wear it, sometimes I just hold it in my hand, I've even slept with it under my pillow. It just makes me feel better. Once in a while when I'm on a walk I see a dragonfly and just smile and think "Hi Mom"....she had a thing for dragonflys! Please keep in touch with us to let us know how both you and your mom are doing. Give her a BIG hug, and travel safe. As always,all in my prayers.0 -
I am so sorry.....eihtak said:Good Advice
So sorry for you to have to be in this spot. Angie gave good advice on having your name on a list to receive information. Most countries have similar rules that way. If your name is not on some list and you call a doc for info on your mom they will not be allowed to give you any. I have a daughter your age and I know that me being sick is also very difficult for her. She not only worries about me, but about her future on all different levels. Most towns have support groups for families of cancer patients that may be very helpful to you when you do get home. Any local doc could help refer one to you, or else the American Cancer Society itself will help. It might be good to meet someone else in the same position as you. Your mom is very lucky to have such a sensitive, caring daughter as you. Although I am older, I lost my mom to complications with Ovarion Cancer eight years ago. I too was very close to her, and it was hard to see her fighting cancer with little help at the time. I don't know what you believe, but my belief is that God has a plan, and although we are not supposed to understand what that is, we are just to have faith that in both good times and bad, we do as much as we humanly can to help one another, and then turn it over to Him and trust that He will handle things. Your mom AND you will be in safe hands. I carry a little dragonfly pin of my moms in my purse, sometimes I wear it, sometimes I just hold it in my hand, I've even slept with it under my pillow. It just makes me feel better. Once in a while when I'm on a walk I see a dragonfly and just smile and think "Hi Mom"....she had a thing for dragonflys! Please keep in touch with us to let us know how both you and your mom are doing. Give her a BIG hug, and travel safe. As always,all in my prayers.
I am so sorry you're having to deal with this at such a tender age.... And feeling so alone....I lost my Mom when I was 25....but i also was married with two young children....I don't think it matters how young or old we are...Our Mothers the center of our lives from the day we are born....I've always felt they are the only person who loves us unconditionally.. I also lived 400 miles from her...so I understand the distance and your needing to get back to work....I was with my Mom for 10 days at the end and she came home from the hospital....then all she kept saying was she wanted me to go home to " my babies," that the needed me more than she did...Finally, my Aunt, who was a nurse and my step- father sat me down and said my Mom would see no peace until I left...I flew home that night, a Wednesday...she died peacefully on Friday...I had such mixed feeling after that...and guilt.... but to be perfectly honest...as time went by I was glad I wasn't there when she died...I don't think I could have stood it...and to this day, 36 years later I have no regrets! And she was my " last" immediate family...my mom, dad and only sibling all died within 7 years of each other...
You have to do what is best for YOU at this time....as awful as it sounds when her time comes, most likely she will pass peacefully in her sleep and wouldn't know if you were there or not...I hope that doesn't sound cruel...it's certainly not intended to be....and with brain mets it's pretty common for people to hallucinate...if that helps any...
My heart breaks for you and your Mom....I will certainly keep you both in my prayers...Please keep posting, there's a wealth of support from the women on this board...
Hugs, Nancy0 -
My heart hurts for you
I'm so sorry! Your are so young and most likely, your mom is so young too! Our mothers, no matter what our relationships have been, are the first ones we call out to when we're in need. Remember, your mom knows how much you love her! If she's like me, she would want you to live your life and continue on being an independent young woman. Just love her - she'll feel it even though miles separate you. When I read your post - all I could do was think about my mom and I wasn't there when she died either. The guilt is there but I know it's silly to feel that way because I couldn't have been there. Period. She knew I loved her because I had told her just the weekend before, in person. I wish you and her peace! Remember she's being cared for by her other loved ones.
Prayers for you both!
aren0 -
wow so sorry to hear...can
wow so sorry to hear...can you take FMLA (no pay but holds job for you) easier said then done since NEED money...I feel you pain (my mom died but not from cancer) but she too was hulucinating etc. She would ask my sister why I didn't come see her while SHE was holding MY hand! So difficult! So sorry about your dad not being there for you-but we here on this board are all with your in spirit at all times.
I"ll check back to see how things are going for you...
Denise0 -
I went thru similar
I went thru a similar situation. One thing to remember, try to see your mom as an adult person that is also your mom. She has had a lot of living that has nothing to do with you, and has made decisions that have affected her life, also not connected to you. There is no reason for you to feel guilty about having to live your life. Though your emotional consequences are deep, they are not your fault. Your mom sounds like a very independent woman, and perhaps you are doing the same thing because you have to.
One of the worst haunting scenarios for me, was a very bad night near the end that I wish I hadn't been there for. Do I feel selfish for that thought? No. Take joy in the woman your mom helped you become and was there for you. You need to do what you have to do, freely, as she would certainly insist if she could.0 -
Thank you for your kindAngieD said:What a tough situation all
What a tough situation all around! What country is your mother in? Do they have Hospice? Does the hospital where she was treated have a Social Services department? Both of these could possibly be of help to you both. Be sure you get listed with all her docs, hospitals, and care givers as one who they can give information to about her for when you go home.
Sending prayers for you both!
Angie
Thank you for your kind words AngieD! My mother's in Morocco right now. I don't think they have Hospice or a Social Services department. I was really surprised to see that everything here is different from what it is back home. Luckily, there's a maid at the house who takes care of her as well. Even the nurses at the hospital that she was in were really rude and not very helpful so I think it's best for her to be at the house surrounded by her family. Thank you for your prayers, we desperately need them. xoxo
Zara0 -
eihtak,eihtak said:Good Advice
So sorry for you to have to be in this spot. Angie gave good advice on having your name on a list to receive information. Most countries have similar rules that way. If your name is not on some list and you call a doc for info on your mom they will not be allowed to give you any. I have a daughter your age and I know that me being sick is also very difficult for her. She not only worries about me, but about her future on all different levels. Most towns have support groups for families of cancer patients that may be very helpful to you when you do get home. Any local doc could help refer one to you, or else the American Cancer Society itself will help. It might be good to meet someone else in the same position as you. Your mom is very lucky to have such a sensitive, caring daughter as you. Although I am older, I lost my mom to complications with Ovarion Cancer eight years ago. I too was very close to her, and it was hard to see her fighting cancer with little help at the time. I don't know what you believe, but my belief is that God has a plan, and although we are not supposed to understand what that is, we are just to have faith that in both good times and bad, we do as much as we humanly can to help one another, and then turn it over to Him and trust that He will handle things. Your mom AND you will be in safe hands. I carry a little dragonfly pin of my moms in my purse, sometimes I wear it, sometimes I just hold it in my hand, I've even slept with it under my pillow. It just makes me feel better. Once in a while when I'm on a walk I see a dragonfly and just smile and think "Hi Mom"....she had a thing for dragonflys! Please keep in touch with us to let us know how both you and your mom are doing. Give her a BIG hug, and travel safe. As always,all in my prayers.
I really appreciate
eihtak,
I really appreciate your advice and it really is a lot of help just like everyone else's. My belief is that God has a plan as well and just like you said, I might not understand it now but I have to accept it. You have been through what I'm going through and it helps to hear it from someone who has lived it. I will make sure to keep something that reminds me of my mother just like you have a dragonfly pin. Thank you so much for your help, I couldn't thank you enough. XOXO
Zara0 -
Thank you Nancy for yourMAJW said:I am so sorry.....
I am so sorry you're having to deal with this at such a tender age.... And feeling so alone....I lost my Mom when I was 25....but i also was married with two young children....I don't think it matters how young or old we are...Our Mothers the center of our lives from the day we are born....I've always felt they are the only person who loves us unconditionally.. I also lived 400 miles from her...so I understand the distance and your needing to get back to work....I was with my Mom for 10 days at the end and she came home from the hospital....then all she kept saying was she wanted me to go home to " my babies," that the needed me more than she did...Finally, my Aunt, who was a nurse and my step- father sat me down and said my Mom would see no peace until I left...I flew home that night, a Wednesday...she died peacefully on Friday...I had such mixed feeling after that...and guilt.... but to be perfectly honest...as time went by I was glad I wasn't there when she died...I don't think I could have stood it...and to this day, 36 years later I have no regrets! And she was my " last" immediate family...my mom, dad and only sibling all died within 7 years of each other...
You have to do what is best for YOU at this time....as awful as it sounds when her time comes, most likely she will pass peacefully in her sleep and wouldn't know if you were there or not...I hope that doesn't sound cruel...it's certainly not intended to be....and with brain mets it's pretty common for people to hallucinate...if that helps any...
My heart breaks for you and your Mom....I will certainly keep you both in my prayers...Please keep posting, there's a wealth of support from the women on this board...
Hugs, Nancy
Thank you Nancy for your support and your encouraging words. Your situation was very similar to mine as you lived 400 miles from her. My mother tells me to go as well but with all the hallucinations and memory loss, I'm scared that she doesn't mean it. She also keeps saying that she's tired of all this and just wants to die. She might still be holding on because I'm here. I really appreciate you helping me make this decision as it is best that I leave. It doesn't sound cruel at all, it's something that I desperately needed to hear as my mind was spinning and I couldn't come to a decision. Thank you for sharing your story with me Nancy, it really helps to have this kind of support as I don't find it anywhere else.
XOXO
Zara0 -
Thank you so much Aren, itksf56 said:My heart hurts for you
I'm so sorry! Your are so young and most likely, your mom is so young too! Our mothers, no matter what our relationships have been, are the first ones we call out to when we're in need. Remember, your mom knows how much you love her! If she's like me, she would want you to live your life and continue on being an independent young woman. Just love her - she'll feel it even though miles separate you. When I read your post - all I could do was think about my mom and I wasn't there when she died either. The guilt is there but I know it's silly to feel that way because I couldn't have been there. Period. She knew I loved her because I had told her just the weekend before, in person. I wish you and her peace! Remember she's being cared for by her other loved ones.
Prayers for you both!
aren
Thank you so much Aren, it helps to know there are similar stories as mine and that makes me feel not so alone after all. The feeling of guilt is what I'm afraid of. I tell her I love all the time. & it's very difficult to have a conversation with her as she doesn't talk much because she's really weak. Just like you mentioned, she's being cared for by other loved ones and she's not alone. Thank you for your support, means a lot to me!
xoxo
Zara0 -
Thank you Denise! Sodisneyfan2008 said:wow so sorry to hear...can
wow so sorry to hear...can you take FMLA (no pay but holds job for you) easier said then done since NEED money...I feel you pain (my mom died but not from cancer) but she too was hulucinating etc. She would ask my sister why I didn't come see her while SHE was holding MY hand! So difficult! So sorry about your dad not being there for you-but we here on this board are all with your in spirit at all times.
I"ll check back to see how things are going for you...
Denise
Thank you Denise! So thankful to have found this board and it truly helps to hear it from others who have similar experiences as mine. I do believe that I will be leaving and won't change my return date. It's definitely going to be hard but I have to do it. Thank you again for all your support!
xoxo
Zara0 -
tufi000,tufi000 said:I went thru similar
I went thru a similar situation. One thing to remember, try to see your mom as an adult person that is also your mom. She has had a lot of living that has nothing to do with you, and has made decisions that have affected her life, also not connected to you. There is no reason for you to feel guilty about having to live your life. Though your emotional consequences are deep, they are not your fault. Your mom sounds like a very independent woman, and perhaps you are doing the same thing because you have to.
One of the worst haunting scenarios for me, was a very bad night near the end that I wish I hadn't been there for. Do I feel selfish for that thought? No. Take joy in the woman your mom helped you become and was there for you. You need to do what you have to do, freely, as she would certainly insist if she could.
Your advice has
tufi000,
Your advice has helped me so much! & it's definitely a lot easier to make a decision after hearing it from someone who has been through a similar situation. At this point, it's out of my hands and just like you said I need to do what I have to do. I keep re-reading everybody's comments because it helps me calm down and helps me realize that I'm not alone. I don't know where I'd be if I hadn't found this board. Thank you very much for all your advice and everybody else's, it has REALLY helped me and it's what I needed to hear.
xoxo
Zara0 -
Sorry!seekingpeace7 said:tufi000,
Your advice has
tufi000,
Your advice has helped me so much! & it's definitely a lot easier to make a decision after hearing it from someone who has been through a similar situation. At this point, it's out of my hands and just like you said I need to do what I have to do. I keep re-reading everybody's comments because it helps me calm down and helps me realize that I'm not alone. I don't know where I'd be if I hadn't found this board. Thank you very much for all your advice and everybody else's, it has REALLY helped me and it's what I needed to hear.
xoxo
Zara
I am so sorry you have to go through this! As a mom, even though my children are younger, I try to hide what I am going through from my children. Especially from my daughter. I want her to see me be strong in case, God forbid, she has to go through it. I am sure your mom does not want you to be upset by seeing her sick like this. If you go you are not leaving her alone it sounds like she is in good hands. Make sure she has what she needs & she already knows that you love her. Moms & daughters have a special bond like that. I wish you & your family all of the best.
xoxo0 -
Oh, Zara, I am so sorry this is happening to youFaith1122 said:Sorry!
I am so sorry you have to go through this! As a mom, even though my children are younger, I try to hide what I am going through from my children. Especially from my daughter. I want her to see me be strong in case, God forbid, she has to go through it. I am sure your mom does not want you to be upset by seeing her sick like this. If you go you are not leaving her alone it sounds like she is in good hands. Make sure she has what she needs & she already knows that you love her. Moms & daughters have a special bond like that. I wish you & your family all of the best.
xoxo
I understand your feelings about your mom. My mom is still living, but is on the opposite side of the country, elderly and not well. I try to get there as much as I can, but I'm currently back in treatment with Stage 4 and mets to bones. Sometimes I feel so helpless and I love her so much, as you love your mother.
The ladies have given you some good advice. Please know your mother is in good hands, she knows you love her and she is in the arms of her higher power.
Please come back to talk to us, Zara. We care and we understand.
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Zaramissrenee said:Oh, Zara, I am so sorry this is happening to you
I understand your feelings about your mom. My mom is still living, but is on the opposite side of the country, elderly and not well. I try to get there as much as I can, but I'm currently back in treatment with Stage 4 and mets to bones. Sometimes I feel so helpless and I love her so much, as you love your mother.
The ladies have given you some good advice. Please know your mother is in good hands, she knows you love her and she is in the arms of her higher power.
Please come back to talk to us, Zara. We care and we understand.
Hugs, Renee
I'm Sorry you are going through this at such a young age. My father passed when I was 36 and it was hard then. No matter how old or how young we are we don't want to lose our loved ones.I think you should listen to your mom.She is still there and telling you what she thinks you should do.She knows you need to keep going and wants you to.She has her loving and supporting sisters there for her and when the time comes they can call you and get there as soon as you can. I would hope your job will understand.I don't see why not.
Your mom wants to go.I know from what others tell me of their family members when it gets harder and harder.The family also wants them to go so the suffering stops.I remember my friend telling me her mother-in-law was begging to go and finally the rest of the family(including) the grandkids wanted her to finally rest in peace.It comes to that.I know this must be a shock.All of a sudden this hits and the cancer is everywhere.Doesn't happen often but when it does happen no time to waste. I think you should go back to work and be ready to come back to be with her at the end.Although if you don't make it understand it is OK.Your mom would.She wants you to take care of yourself financially and also wants you to be healthy.You could be there the whole time and leave her side just for a few minutes and those few minutes might be when she passes.So you going back to where you live is a chance just like if you leave the room.
I know how you feel though.I had a situation where I told my aunt I would be back the next day to see her.She grinned.I was late because we had company.When I got there her door was closed.I asked why? and they told me she passed.They let me go in there and it was heartbreaking because I made a promise and I missed out by a few minutes. So it does happen many times. What got to me her son made no effort from what the hospital told me.They called him but he didn't even try to make it.
I wish you the best and would like to say "getyour mammos). I know you are 21 but it happens to younger men and women today.My mom was dx with bc at 21.She passed at 81.A 60 year survivor.I had benign breast tumors since I was 20(young like your mom) and my niece had breast cancer at 30.She is a 7 year survivor and me a 2 1/2 year survivor.Now my sister found a lump and waiting for her insurance to kick in.I'm upset.
Lynn Smith0 -
Seeking Peace
What a sweet and beautiful young lady you are. When I was undergoing my treatments and not doing well at all, I had two children in college and one in high school. There were times that I didn't think I would make it. But during those times, as much as I love my children and love having them around me, they had their lives going on each day and they needed to participate in that. They needed to hold down jobs, study, etc.... THATS what I wanted them to do. I didn't want them sitting with me when their lives needed to be tended to.
All I can say is, pray about it and do it. Your mother has a tremendous love for you and she would not want you to suffer from guilt. Guilt is ugly and awful and it is not a burdon for you to bear. When it comes, fling it off. When guilty thoughts come - and they will - shut them down. Instead, praise God for that incredible mom you are blessed with. Praise Him for the sunshine, blue sky, food in the fridge. Praise Him for the lessons you learned from your mom. Choose one and hollar out a THANK YOU, JESUS!
As are many others here, I'm praying for you.
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Hi
I think you sound very thoughtful and sensitive you your mums needs. No need to feel guilty everyone needs to support themselves and work no matter what life throws at them. You sound very caring and obviously adore your mum. Thankfully she has people who care for her and attend to her which is great. Any one who CARES feels guilt even when there is no need to do so. It is because you are a caring daughter these thoughts enter your mind. Hard times, its OK, sorry you are having to cope with this at such a young age. Just keep in touch with your mum while working via phone, text, etc etc, flowers. If your mum is anything like her daughter, she will totally understand how you feel and be very proud of who you are.0 -
GREAT ATTITUDERozHopkins said:Hi
I think you sound very thoughtful and sensitive you your mums needs. No need to feel guilty everyone needs to support themselves and work no matter what life throws at them. You sound very caring and obviously adore your mum. Thankfully she has people who care for her and attend to her which is great. Any one who CARES feels guilt even when there is no need to do so. It is because you are a caring daughter these thoughts enter your mind. Hard times, its OK, sorry you are having to cope with this at such a young age. Just keep in touch with your mum while working via phone, text, etc etc, flowers. If your mum is anything like her daughter, she will totally understand how you feel and be very proud of who you are.
YOUR AMAZIN YOUNG LADY I CAN SENSE IT IN YOUR WRITING SO SMART N INTELLIGENT YOUR MOMMA IS ONE BLESSED LADY TO HAVE YOU AS A DAUGHTER SO WHETHER YOU GO OR STAY SHE WILL BE A WINNER EITHER WAY HUGGS>PRAYERS FROM WEST VIRGINIA0 -
Faith1122, missrenee, LynnFaith1122 said:Sorry!
I am so sorry you have to go through this! As a mom, even though my children are younger, I try to hide what I am going through from my children. Especially from my daughter. I want her to see me be strong in case, God forbid, she has to go through it. I am sure your mom does not want you to be upset by seeing her sick like this. If you go you are not leaving her alone it sounds like she is in good hands. Make sure she has what she needs & she already knows that you love her. Moms & daughters have a special bond like that. I wish you & your family all of the best.
xoxo
Faith1122, missrenee, Lynn Smith, karinna, RozHopkins, CHERYL 4,
I would like to thank each and everyone of you for your support, it means everything to me! You've all been so good to me, and your advice and words of encouragement have given me so much hope that I'm learning to accept my mother's condition. I thank you all very much for sharing your stories with me. It helps to know that I can come here to vent and have people who will understand me. I know that it's an extremely difficult time for me now but God has a plan and I will trust it.
I'm really sorry for all of those that are dealing with this but just remember to stay strong, hold on to your faith and stay positive. I've been doing a lot of research since my mother's doctor was unable to offer us any conventional treatment and was looking at any other options. I found this medicine called Escozine that is made out of the scorpio's venom. I'm not sure if any of you have heard of it but apparently it works. Unfortunately since my mom's cancer has spread and is pretty much generalized, it's difficult to treat. I did purchase a bottle for her but I think her stage is final. For any of you fighting cancer, please do your research and look into it. I have seen some people online who have been saved by it! www.escozine.com.
As for my mother, I feel like her condition is worsening day by day. She has been sleeping all day and every time I check up on her, she's sleeping. Yesterday she was hallucinating A LOT and it scared me to death. It's definitely not healthy for me to see this as it hurts so much.. but with your support, I know I can eventually get through this. This is extremely difficult for me to say and I love my mother to death.. but I'd rather have her be in paradise than suffer through this.
I want to thank you all for being so kind to me and I know I can find the support I need here from such wonderful women like yourselves.
My prayers are with those that are fighting this, never give up!
xoxox love always
Zara0 -
Faith1122, missrenee, LynnCHERYL 4 said:GREAT ATTITUDE
YOUR AMAZIN YOUNG LADY I CAN SENSE IT IN YOUR WRITING SO SMART N INTELLIGENT YOUR MOMMA IS ONE BLESSED LADY TO HAVE YOU AS A DAUGHTER SO WHETHER YOU GO OR STAY SHE WILL BE A WINNER EITHER WAY HUGGS>PRAYERS FROM WEST VIRGINIA
Faith1122, missrenee, Lynn Smith, karinna, RozHopkins, CHERYL 4,
I would like to thank each and everyone of you for your support, it means everything to me! You've all been so good to me, and your advice and words of encouragement have given me so much hope that I'm learning to accept my mother's condition. I thank you all very much for sharing your stories with me. It helps to know that I can come here to vent and have people who will understand me. I know that it's an extremely difficult time for me now but God has a plan and I will trust it.
I'm really sorry for all of those that are dealing with this but just remember to stay strong, hold on to your faith and stay positive. I've been doing a lot of research since my mother's doctor was unable to offer us any conventional treatment and was looking at any other options. I found this medicine called Escozine that is made out of the scorpio's venom. I'm not sure if any of you have heard of it but apparently it works. Unfortunately since my mom's cancer has spread and is pretty much generalized, it's difficult to treat. I did purchase a bottle for her but I think her stage is final. For any of you fighting cancer, please do your research and look into it. I have seen some people online who have been saved by it! www.escozine.com.
As for my mother, I feel like her condition is worsening day by day. She has been sleeping all day and every time I check up on her, she's sleeping. Yesterday she was hallucinating A LOT and it scared me to death. It's definitely not healthy for me to see this as it hurts so much.. but with your support, I know I can eventually get through this. This is extremely difficult for me to say and I love my mother to death.. but I'd rather have her be in paradise than suffer through this.
I want to thank you all for being so kind to me and I know I can find the support I need here from such wonderful women like yourselves.
My prayers are with those that are fighting this, never give up!
xoxox love always
Zara0
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