Feb 12, 2012 - 4:06 am
Hi, I am new here. I hope you are all doing well. I am one of those people who wants everyone to be okay and I have always been one of the strong ones in my family. I now need to be encouraged. I am having a lot of stress due to losing two jobs in six months, my car quit on me last week (transmission gone), and now I am having spells of itching and had a cold so now I have a swollen gland in my neck. I have been coughing for months but at least part of that is due to reflux and a hiatal hernia. I am a mess. I have wonderful friends and they have listened to me for a while now, and have started telling me that it is stress and I think they could be right, but I am still worried. Since I no longer have a job I no longer have insurance. I was able to pay for the cobra when I lost the first job but after the second I just couldn't do it again. I did manage to have a blood test a couple of weeks ago and my LDH was 166 which is good and my kidney and liver function were good too. I have been on another site that the blood tests mean nothing and that the itching could be any thing under the sun. I am praying that my friends are right and I am just stressed out. Two of friends have said of course your glands are swollen, you've had a really bad cold, and I have, I could hardly get words out I was so hoarse. Has anyone else had these things happen and it turn out to be a false alarm? As soon as I get a car and get approved for financial assistance at the hospital where I get treatment I am going back to the doctor for a scan, until then life is very difficult. I can't even believe that things have gone this crazy. I have never been without a car!I have to get a ride to do everything and it isn't easy, I don't like imposing on people either. When I finished chemo back in 2009 and began to feel human again I was so happy, I thought I was going to do all the things I had not yet done. For a little while things were looking up and then I lost my job, less than two months later I found another one that paid a lot better than the one I lost, I thought, this is even better, but I was tired and continued to become more fatigued. Here I am this morning at almost 4 am and I have not been to bed yet. Sorry, for being so long winded, I come from a long line of writers. My Dad and his mother were writers. Dad passed away in Nov. of 2005 with lung cancer. I miss him and I wish he was here to talk to. Right now I wish I had anyone to talk to but I don't. I am single and I don't like to worry my family. My friends all think I am losing my mind and I am wondering the same thing. Thanks for listening, any kind encouragement is welcome and all prayers. God Bless!