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So ive been in the hospital going on two weeks, came in for a trachostomy and ended up with a good case of pnemonia, today i got the pathology reports back, all show cancer squimish cell. This is my third time down the cancer road and i don't know if i have it in me. In the begining iwas a healthy 280 now i can verly maintain a 140. The cancer is just ubove my voice box and up into the base of my tongue. Im not a real big fan of these large operations plus i dont know if i could suvive one. Radiation is out because ive had to much already. Maybe a different type of chemo or some other treatment. I dont know for now just needed to vent. Thanks

Brad

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  • nwasen
    nwasen Member Posts: 235 Member
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    Brad,
    wow, I am unsure what to say. Hang tough I guess and be sure and get a 2nd opinion. You have all of us on here to listen...
    take care
    Peace, Nancy
  • nwasen
    nwasen Member Posts: 235 Member
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    Brad,
    wow, I am unsure what to say. Hang tough I guess and be sure and get a 2nd opinion. You have all of us on here to listen...
    take care
    Peace, Nancy
  • arndog64
    arndog64 Member Posts: 537
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    nwasen said:

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    Brad,
    wow, I am unsure what to say. Hang tough I guess and be sure and get a 2nd opinion. You have all of us on here to listen...
    take care
    Peace, Nancy

    I am so sorry to hear of
    I am so sorry to hear of this update. Vent away my friend. I can't say I know how you feel, being I am a caregiver. My husband told me the other day he never wanted to battle the beast ever again. I will be praying for you.
  • longtermsurvivor
    longtermsurvivor Member Posts: 1,842 Member
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    Thinking of you Brad
    I'm sorry to hear of this news. Wishing better days for you. Feel better. See what they have to offer you.

    Pat
  • Daddisgrl
    Daddisgrl Member Posts: 116
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    Look into TORS robotic
    Look into TORS robotic surgery. A guy on cancer compass just had it done the other day at Penn in Philly. Here is his post

    My hub said he probably would not do it again; I'm sure it would depend on where it was. You need to make the right decision for you. The main concern would be quality of life.

    Good luck.
  • Hal61
    Hal61 Member Posts: 655
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    Thanks for posting
    Hi Brad, thanks for communicating with us. I've been with you pretty much all the way, and I and the rest of us are still with you, thinking of you. You've had one hell of a fight, and I hope the docs are making your comfortable. I know they're doing what they can, and you'll continue to do the same. Rest your mind. Whatever your weight, you have always been a strong and thoughtful man, and your posts have always reflected that.

    best, Hal
  • fisrpotpe
    fisrpotpe Member Posts: 1,349 Member
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    we all here where given what we thought was going to be more than we can handle, however i believe we all were given something we could handle and we are all here. some like you brian were given three, the first two you did well.... your here.

    i was told first time, you have cancer. years later wind blew something off the roof and landed on my head, 3 broken vertebrae. couple years later they thought i had cancer on pharynx, turned out congronecrosis which is side effect from radiation. year later you have cancer on tongue, oh ya i was given for a lifetime a trach with the necrosis.

    we all here are not given anything more than we can handle. maintain a positive mental attitude, believe you will be fine, give it to God and trust him as he loves you and never, never, never give up!

    God loves you
    john

    oh ya, we are here for you any time for any reason.... uncondictionally
  • Hondo
    Hondo Member Posts: 6,636 Member
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    Hi Brad
    I am sorry to hear this as it brings back memories when I was told my C was back for a third time. Don’t give up I did it three times and finial won the battle, you can too. It is hard as hell but we are fighters and we are not giving in to this crap. E-mail me if I can help any as I am not on CSN that much anymore, click on Hondo and my e-mail address is there.

    I am praying for you my brother
    Hondo
  • Skiffin16
    Skiffin16 Member Posts: 8,305 Member
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    Never Give Up.....
    Brad, sorry of the set back, but I agree with John...never give up, or show doubt..you are a fighter, and you can make it.

    As John said so well;

    "we all here are not given anything more than we can handle. maintain a positive mental attitude, believe you will be fine, give it to God and trust him as he loves you and never, never, never give up!"

    Thoughts and Prayers,
    John
  • sweetblood22
    sweetblood22 Member Posts: 3,228
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    Brad
    I think about you all the time, and I keep you in my daily prayers. I am sorry to read this. I am praying that they will find a way to treat you and that you can beat this. Hugs, D
  • Jimbo55
    Jimbo55 Member Posts: 590 Member
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    Stay Strong Brad
    Brad, So sorry to hear of the latest setback. Know that we are all pulling for you. My best to you.

    Jimbo
  • D Lewis
    D Lewis Member Posts: 1,581 Member
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    So sorry to hear the news.
    Brad,

    I'n holding you in my thoughts today. You are a very strong and brave person. Please keep hanging in there.

    Deb
  • Ed_PortOrange
    Ed_PortOrange Member Posts: 110
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    Venting is healthy
    Our emotions need to be shared, so sharing your feelings is very healthy. We are all here to listen and be supportive as we all wonder where this desease will lead us. Stay positive and don't give up the fight. You are a brave person and the will god has provided, can carry through this rough phase.

    Never give up, my prayers are with you.

    Ed
  • Pumakitty
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    Stay Stron
    Brad,

    Please stay strong. Take a day to vent and be down then get ready for the fight. You never know what chemo could work, so demand the doctors try something. They told us that chemo would not work for dad's reoccurance and they were wrong.


    Tons of love and prayers coming your way.


    Kathy
  • Pam M
    Pam M Member Posts: 2,196
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    Bleep
    Sorry you're in the mix again. This sucks. And feel free to vent; you've more a right to than most.
  • robinleigh
    robinleigh Member Posts: 297
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    Possibilities
    Just wanted to say that if radiation or surgery are not options...and a new chemo approach is suggested...my husband was in that position somewhat similar. I consulted with Livestrong (Lance Armstrong's foundation) and they were very helpful in finding a clinical trial appropriate for him. He is correctly in a trial in Atlanta and having a good response. Contact me if you want more information by can email.
  • IAmStrong
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    Possibilities
    Just wanted to say that if radiation or surgery are not options...and a new chemo approach is suggested...my husband was in that position somewhat similar. I consulted with Livestrong (Lance Armstrong's foundation) and they were very helpful in finding a clinical trial appropriate for him. He is correctly in a trial in Atlanta and having a good response. Contact me if you want more information by can email.

    Hang Tough
    Sorry to hear of your set back. Ironically, I was a vent nurse. Still a nurse, just not with vents any longer. I Know it is frightening, but totally possible to get off. I, when I nearly died from the effects of treatment (chronic renal failure for one) had lost 65 lbs, ALL of my muscle tone, could not lift my head off the pillow. I started at the encouragment of a dear friend, saying out loud "I Am Strong, I AM Healthy" 10 times whenver I thought of it. She put sticky notes up around my home to remind me. Even though I had no voice, and was anything BUT...I did it. You body will catch up to your self talk. Say it like you mean it. I am praying for you and will continue to do so.

    Come back! In Gratitude for today,

    "This Is the First Day of the Rest of Your Life"
  • stevenl
    stevenl Member Posts: 587
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    IAmStrong said:

    Hang Tough
    Sorry to hear of your set back. Ironically, I was a vent nurse. Still a nurse, just not with vents any longer. I Know it is frightening, but totally possible to get off. I, when I nearly died from the effects of treatment (chronic renal failure for one) had lost 65 lbs, ALL of my muscle tone, could not lift my head off the pillow. I started at the encouragment of a dear friend, saying out loud "I Am Strong, I AM Healthy" 10 times whenver I thought of it. She put sticky notes up around my home to remind me. Even though I had no voice, and was anything BUT...I did it. You body will catch up to your self talk. Say it like you mean it. I am praying for you and will continue to do so.

    Come back! In Gratitude for today,

    "This Is the First Day of the Rest of Your Life"

    Damnit man
    Sorry but I just could not resist. Hoping and praying for you my friend.
    All the best,
    Steve