very mixed feeling about birthday

dbhadra
dbhadra Member Posts: 344 Member
in Breast Cancer #1
Hi all:

How have your feelings about birthdays changed since your DX? I am turning 45 tomorrow and feel really emotional, wondering if it my last birthday on earth, not sure if I even feeling like celebrating since this whole year has been so tough, but grateful...very, very mixed!

Laura

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  • mamolady
    mamolady Member Posts: 796 Member
    #2
    Happy Birthday!
    Laura,
    Personally, I am repeating 47 since it sucked. Try to celebrate. You have been through so much and deserve to have a wonderful day.

    Cindy
  • MAJW
    MAJW Member Posts: 2,510 Member
    #3
    mamolady said:

    Happy Birthday!
    Laura,
    Personally, I am repeating 47 since it sucked. Try to celebrate. You have been through so much and deserve to have a wonderful day.

    Cindy

    Happy happy
    Birthday, Laura! I look at every birthday as a true gift....I try not to look back nor to the future...I take everyday as a gift...that's why they call it "the present".....I totally understand your feelings, though...I think it's rather "natural" to have these thoughts....but remember NO ONE Is guaranteed a tomorrow...cancer or no cancer....

    Try to celebrate...you deserve it...you've been through so much.....Be kind to yourself....Are you still on Zeloda? I am...7 days on7 days off....I think of you often, my "Zeloda Bud".....:)
    Again, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

    Big Birthday Hugs to you!
    Nancy
  • skipper54
    skipper54 Member Posts: 936 Member
    #4
    MAJW said:

    Happy happy
    Birthday, Laura! I look at every birthday as a true gift....I try not to look back nor to the future...I take everyday as a gift...that's why they call it "the present".....I totally understand your feelings, though...I think it's rather "natural" to have these thoughts....but remember NO ONE Is guaranteed a tomorrow...cancer or no cancer....

    Try to celebrate...you deserve it...you've been through so much.....Be kind to yourself....Are you still on Zeloda? I am...7 days on7 days off....I think of you often, my "Zeloda Bud".....:)
    Again, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

    Big Birthday Hugs to you!
    Nancy

    Happy Birthday!
    And many MANY more!!!!

    Celebrate any day! I know how you feel though. Last year I was doing chemo and wasn't sure I wanted to celebrate. Who felt like it? Wasn't sure if I'd be around for this year, etc. But this year we partied! None of us knows how many birthdays we have left. It might not be bc, it might be a car accident, or something else. So, I celebrated! And food tasted a whole lot better this year.

    Party hearty!!!!!!!!
  • disneyfan2008
    disneyfan2008 Member Posts: 6,583 Member
    #5
    Hard as it may be...try to
    Hard as it may be...try to have great time...celebrate...I wish you the best

    Denise
  • Mitzi333
    Mitzi333 Member Posts: 511 Member
    #6
    disneyfan2008 said:

    Hard as it may be...try to
    Hard as it may be...try to have great time...celebrate...I wish you the best

    Denise

    Happy Birthday !!!
    Wishing YOU a Great Birthday. Try to Enjoy and Celebrate your gift of life.

    Wishing you many many more.

    Cheers!!!

    Big Hugs~
    Mitzi ;0)
  • JuJuBeez
    JuJuBeez Member Posts: 332
    #7
    Happy Birthday to you!
    I was dx on 3/29/10, and my 44th birthday was 9/17/10. I was happy to be finished with treatment, considering for a couple of weeks I was convinced my life was over. But I didn't feel like I 'earned' the title of 'Survivor' yet. So, my 45th bday on 9/17/11 was nice. I looked back at the last 18 months, and I feel I've really accomplished something. I'm still here, and as fat 'n sassy as ever! Actually, more sassy than before. I've grown some (cajones) that I didn't have before cancer. I have a peacefulness in me from living for ME now, and not giving 2 cents what other people think of me. I have a feeling that each birthday that comes, I will be even more peaceful.

    How do you feel today? Do three things to spoil yourself today! :-) You deserve it!
  • sbmly53
    sbmly53 Member Posts: 1,522
    #8
    Laura,
    I think it's natural to feel the way you do, especially with the first birthday after the dx. I had a birthday 2 days after my surgery, so I didn't have time to think about it. By the time my next one rolled around, life was beginning to get back to normal - or my 'new normal'. Now, very soon I'll have another birthday and I can honestly say I don't dread it. That's not to say I want to look older, however!!

    Have a good day, remember this is your next birthday and there will be more.

    Sue
  • faith_trust_and_a_little_bit_of_chemotherapy
    faith_trust_and_a_little_bit_of_chemotherapy Member Posts: 319 Member
    #9
    sbmly53 said:

    Laura,
    I think it's natural to feel the way you do, especially with the first birthday after the dx. I had a birthday 2 days after my surgery, so I didn't have time to think about it. By the time my next one rolled around, life was beginning to get back to normal - or my 'new normal'. Now, very soon I'll have another birthday and I can honestly say I don't dread it. That's not to say I want to look older, however!!

    Have a good day, remember this is your next birthday and there will be more.

    Sue

    Savor it...
    Before cancer, I use to poo-poo my birthdays. I turned 54 whilst in treatment. I teach school and my teenage daughter baked a cake and sent me to work with a bag of fortune cookies so that I might share my good fortune. I couldn't even taste the cake, but I didn't care.

    I understand the trepidation, I've had another birthday since, and I am enjoying the Hell out of them. On my last birthday, I gave packs of birthday candles to 3 colleagues that were battling cancer at that time. I wanted to encourage them to think beyond the day to day of their treatment.

    Love yourself.
  • DianeBC
    DianeBC Member Posts: 3,881 Member
    #10
    MAJW said:

    Happy happy
    Birthday, Laura! I look at every birthday as a true gift....I try not to look back nor to the future...I take everyday as a gift...that's why they call it "the present".....I totally understand your feelings, though...I think it's rather "natural" to have these thoughts....but remember NO ONE Is guaranteed a tomorrow...cancer or no cancer....

    Try to celebrate...you deserve it...you've been through so much.....Be kind to yourself....Are you still on Zeloda? I am...7 days on7 days off....I think of you often, my "Zeloda Bud".....:)
    Again, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

    Big Birthday Hugs to you!
    Nancy

    I celebrate each and every
    I celebrate each and every day, birthday or not. I try to look at life as cancer is my past and I have a great future and a great life ahead of me.


    Happy Birthday to you! Have a great day!


    Hugs, Diane
  • Lynn Smith
    Lynn Smith Member Posts: 1,264 Member
    #11
    faith_trust_and_a_little_bit_of_chemotherapy said:

    Savor it...
    Before cancer, I use to poo-poo my birthdays. I turned 54 whilst in treatment. I teach school and my teenage daughter baked a cake and sent me to work with a bag of fortune cookies so that I might share my good fortune. I couldn't even taste the cake, but I didn't care.

    I understand the trepidation, I've had another birthday since, and I am enjoying the Hell out of them. On my last birthday, I gave packs of birthday candles to 3 colleagues that were battling cancer at that time. I wanted to encourage them to think beyond the day to day of their treatment.

    Love yourself.

    I can't wait
    I can't wait till my next birthday.It won't be till Next March but I tell everyone I am almost 65.I feel blessed to reach that age and now blessed with every birthday that comes and goes.Seems like the wait to have our next mammos and other tests take forever and I want things to speed up. I tell people I want to live to be in my 90's. Keep those birtdays coming for me. It brings me closer to my goal of a long life ahead.

    Not to say I don't have days I wonder about the future but most days I wish for a long life and believe I will have one. I got tired of dwelling on such a stressful life with BC.I have to start thinking about the future and I don't care how fast it goes.

    BC is really hard to live with.Out lives are now unpredictable.

    Lynn Smith

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