19 year reunion - I haven't got the words

aysemari
aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
Hello Ladies,

I missed you and have lots of catching up to do. I will read through you posts as I
find time. I just got back from germany, Freddy traveled with me, and we visited all
of my brothers and sisters. They had NO clue whatsover, that I was coming to visit
after 19 years! Only my brother's girl friend was let in on the operation SURPRISE.
You should have seen the faces, best of all was my oldest brother, his daughter
let me in, I had never met her but we connected right away. He was still sleeping
had worked the night shift, I snuck in next to him and hugged him. First he hugged
me, then I talked to him and he jumped 3 feet it was awesome... Every where we
went there was this great element of surprise and I got to see them in their every
day life. All in all..... I do not have the words to describe how amazing it felt.

Some of you may remember that I was diagnosed a week before I was going to
see my family ( finally after 17 years, I had gotten my green card), everything was
ready, tickets,visa and the diagnosis hit me like a hammer. I was so mad and
determined that I would see my family again on my terms and not when I am sick.
So determined that I BEGGED my sister not to come when I had my double mastectomy.
Sure... a regretted it a bit... when I realized how hard it was alone. BUT here I am
2 years later, still kicking (: AND best of all - VERY much aware of the wonder of it all!!!

I hope everyone is doing ok. I will read up as soon as I can, my work email is loaded
too, so it may take me a while but just know that no matter how much it breaks my
heart sometimes and no matter how little I post sometimes ( I just don't have the words
sometimes), I am always thinking of you and ALWAYS, always hoping ferociously that
yet another sister will escape the the grip of this terrible illness.

Sending you all a HUUUGE hug and hoping that my post gave you little glimmer of hope.

Love,
Ayse

Comments

  • grams2jc
    grams2jc Member Posts: 756
    Fantastic
    So glad you got to go catch up with your family. Such a long time not to see them.

    Glad you had a wonderful time!

    Jennifer
  • skipper54
    skipper54 Member Posts: 936 Member
    grams2jc said:

    Fantastic
    So glad you got to go catch up with your family. Such a long time not to see them.

    Glad you had a wonderful time!

    Jennifer

    Sounds like a great trip
    with lots of fun! Glad you got to make it and surprise everyone.
  • Lighthouse_7
    Lighthouse_7 Member Posts: 1,566 Member
    skipper54 said:

    Sounds like a great trip
    with lots of fun! Glad you got to make it and surprise everyone.

    Hi Ayse!
    So good to hear from you! I understand how busy life can get but it sure is good to hear from you.
    The family trip sounds amazing! So glad you're having fun, you deserve it.
    Post when you can but we know how much you love us!
    Ditto..........
    Hugs,
    Wanda
  • Mitzi333
    Mitzi333 Member Posts: 511 Member

    Hi Ayse!
    So good to hear from you! I understand how busy life can get but it sure is good to hear from you.
    The family trip sounds amazing! So glad you're having fun, you deserve it.
    Post when you can but we know how much you love us!
    Ditto..........
    Hugs,
    Wanda

    Great to hear from you...
    What a Wonderful trip!!! How exciting and on your terms. GREAT memories of your family. So Happy to hear all is going well with you!!!

    Thanks again for the update. Life is to be lived and you're doing it, "Your Way"!!!

    I love to read the positive news!!!

    Yes, check in from time to time... You're in my thoughts and prayers!!!

    Big Hugs back at cha,

    Mitzi ;0)
  • missrenee
    missrenee Member Posts: 2,136 Member
    Mitzi333 said:

    Great to hear from you...
    What a Wonderful trip!!! How exciting and on your terms. GREAT memories of your family. So Happy to hear all is going well with you!!!

    Thanks again for the update. Life is to be lived and you're doing it, "Your Way"!!!

    I love to read the positive news!!!

    Yes, check in from time to time... You're in my thoughts and prayers!!!

    Big Hugs back at cha,

    Mitzi ;0)

    Oh, Ayse--I feel the emotion
    I've been thinking about you and your trip to Germany. I'm so happy for you and your family. I know that trip had a lot of meaning for all of you. How wonderful that Freddy was able to travel with you.

    Glad to have you back and read your wonderful post, my friend.

    Love, Renee
  • disneyfan2008
    disneyfan2008 Member Posts: 6,583 Member
    sounds like GREAT trip for
    sounds like GREAT trip for all involved...good for you..

    Denise
  • mariam_11_09
    mariam_11_09 Member Posts: 691
    Ayse, welcome back!! It was
    Ayse, welcome back!! It was wonderful to read about your reunion with your family after so many years. I enjoyed reading about the playfulness you had with keeping it a surprise. It must have been a truly joyour occasion for everyone. Great that Freddy got to go along as well. Keep us updated on all fronts.

    much love to you.
  • Bella Luna
    Bella Luna Member Posts: 1,578 Member
    How Fantastic!
    Ayse... how FANTASTIC for you, Freddy, and your beloved Family! I am so happy that you were able to visit your Family after a traumatic turn of events and that element of SURPRISE was CLASSIC! Your Family must have been over the moon with JOY to see you once again! I am sure they were also happy to meet your man, Freddy!

    Hooray for YOU!
    xoxo
    Ines
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member

    How Fantastic!
    Ayse... how FANTASTIC for you, Freddy, and your beloved Family! I am so happy that you were able to visit your Family after a traumatic turn of events and that element of SURPRISE was CLASSIC! Your Family must have been over the moon with JOY to see you once again! I am sure they were also happy to meet your man, Freddy!

    Hooray for YOU!
    xoxo
    Ines

    SURREAL .. and on your terms!
    I bet you felt like you were living a dream for many days --. I am thrilled beyond words that Operation Surprise went off like clock work. And to have Freddy there meeting your family -- awesome. Reconnecting with your past, present and future.

    Many blessings and well wishes, Dear Ayse.

    Vicki Sam
  • natly15
    natly15 Member Posts: 1,941
    Ayse this is wonderful news
    Ayse this is wonderful news and so good to hear from you. I can't even imagine what a wonderful reunion it must have been for you and all your siblings. You are a wonderful inspiration to all of us. Thank you sweet sister.
  • sbmly53
    sbmly53 Member Posts: 1,522
    Ayse,
    I have been missing your posts and had hoped it was because you went to Germany. I am so excited for you! What a wonderful trip. I can't wait to hear more about it....maybe at Hershey???

    Sue
  • Double Whammy
    Double Whammy Member Posts: 2,832 Member
    natly15 said:

    Ayse this is wonderful news
    Ayse this is wonderful news and so good to hear from you. I can't even imagine what a wonderful reunion it must have been for you and all your siblings. You are a wonderful inspiration to all of us. Thank you sweet sister.

    You brought tears of joy to my eyes
    Ayse, your life has become a wonder, hasn't it? I'm so happy for you and all your positive experiences - in such a short period of time actually. Life is good!

    Love, Suzanne
  • Lynn Smith
    Lynn Smith Member Posts: 1,264 Member
    sbmly53 said:

    Ayse,
    I have been missing your posts and had hoped it was because you went to Germany. I am so excited for you! What a wonderful trip. I can't wait to hear more about it....maybe at Hershey???

    Sue

    What a reunion
    What a reunion full of surprises. After all those years your family seeing you and meeting Freddy. I am happy for you and your family. Keep in touch.

    Things sure have been exciting for you the last few months.


    Lynn Smith
  • Gabe N Abby Mom
    Gabe N Abby Mom Member Posts: 2,413
    Ayse I've missed your joy
    Ayse I've missed your joy and your insight...I always picture you with a bright smile and living life to the fullest while walking the streets of NYC. But no, you're off to Germany...absolutely wonderful! I can only imagine what it was like to spend time with your family after such a long time. Thank you for sharing it with us.

    Hugs,

    Linda
  • laughs_a_lot
    laughs_a_lot Member Posts: 1,368 Member
    Germany
    I am so glad you went (and on your terms). I miss Germany myself. I have shirtail relation there. My granfather's cousin (and his children) who I saw when I was there. This is a surprise they will never forget.
  • GreeneyedGirl
    GreeneyedGirl Member Posts: 1,077

    Germany
    I am so glad you went (and on your terms). I miss Germany myself. I have shirtail relation there. My granfather's cousin (and his children) who I saw when I was there. This is a surprise they will never forget.

    How wonderful~
    You expressed your emotions perfectly~ what an amazing moment for you to have, surprising your family and being able to be together after so long.
    Bless you Sweet Ayse~ and may you have lots of energy catching up on all those work emails!
    ~Melanie
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    VickiSam said:

    SURREAL .. and on your terms!
    I bet you felt like you were living a dream for many days --. I am thrilled beyond words that Operation Surprise went off like clock work. And to have Freddy there meeting your family -- awesome. Reconnecting with your past, present and future.

    Many blessings and well wishes, Dear Ayse.

    Vicki Sam

    Wow Vickisam
    you hit the nail on the head and expressed it so much better than I could.
    But you always are the one that types out what's on everybody's minds. You
    put it into words and make us understand.

    Love you!!
    Ayse
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member

    You brought tears of joy to my eyes
    Ayse, your life has become a wonder, hasn't it? I'm so happy for you and all your positive experiences - in such a short period of time actually. Life is good!

    Love, Suzanne

    CHECK YOU OUT!!!
    Gosh you look just gorgeous, I am green of envy... lol. It's hard for a tomboy like
    me to look the way you do!!!

    Hugs,
    Ayse
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    missrenee said:

    Oh, Ayse--I feel the emotion
    I've been thinking about you and your trip to Germany. I'm so happy for you and your family. I know that trip had a lot of meaning for all of you. How wonderful that Freddy was able to travel with you.

    Glad to have you back and read your wonderful post, my friend.

    Love, Renee

    you and were sitting at that bar and I was telling you how badly I wanted to
    go home? What was that about a year ago? Well ET made it home.. lol.
    Please say hi to Kevin and Jake.

    Missing you tons,
    Ayse
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    Thank you all for your kind words
    Well here I am refreshed and ready to pester you all again (:

    Ladies here's to our years of friendship, can't believe it's been already 2 years
    and for many, many, many years to come. Chin, chin!!!

    Love
    Ayse