Kelly33

Hi
Well today is the first time since my Mom's passing that I decided to check in. I really hope everyone is doing well.
It has been very difficult going on without mom but we are managing the best way we know how. I have found some poetry that has made me feel better about her passing. I know that may seem strange but it has given me some strength.
I"A Parable of Immortality" by Henry van ****.



I am standing by the seashore.

A ship at my side spreads her white sails to the morning breeze

and starts for the blue ocean.

She is an object of beauty and strength,

and I stand and watch

until at last she hangs like a speck of white cloud
just where the sun and sky come down to mingle with each other.


Then someone at my side says, 'There she goes!
Gone where? Gone from my sight - that is all.


She is just as large in mast and hull and spar

as she was when she left my side

and just as able to bear her load of living freight

to the places of destination.
Her diminished size is in me, not in her.


And just at the moment when someone at my side says,

'There she goes! ' ,

there are other eyes watching her coming,

and other voices ready to take up the glad shout :
'Here she comes!' hope it's okay if i share on with you.

I guess i see mom leaving us and we are all a mess of tears but then I imagine her mother, father and brother being so excited to be able to see her again. I really hope this is the case.
I have been trying to stay connected to Mom by riding her bike for her. Mom use to bike 26km everyday summer, spring and fall. I wish I would have gone with her. She also used to walk each day for at least one hour and sometimes i would do that with her. Hahaha she used to tell me i was slowing her down

I am worried about my Dad. I go and have breakfast with him in the mornings before i head to work. He is lonely and he is blind so he doesn't have a lot of connections. I hope he doesn't become depressed. I have talked to him about joining something in the community and he says he will but not yet.
Thank you so very much for checking in on me. It really means the world to me.

September 11th my sister, my daughters, my nephew and I will all be walking in the Winner's Walk of hope. I am sure it will be a hard day. When i registered in April I thought my Mom would be able to do the last block with me. So we will walk in her memory and honour her and all of the teal warriors that we have met along the way.

Sincerely,
Kelly