update

Hello everyone, just a brief update on my husband. We went to a meeting this morning had a appt. at 7 am. About four of the docters came in and felt my husband neck, and they all went over his med records. Then his ENT doctor came back in and said " Well, it looks like the cancer is still there the 33 rad treatments and 12 cemo treatments that you have had did not get the cancer, the treatments did make the tumor smaller but it is still there, and he is to high a risk for surgery because he is a liver transplant patient" So I asked " so what do we do now? He said " We could do some more cemo this MIGHT help" So he ordered my husband to have a barium swallow test done, also some blood work, he said with all the rad treatments his thyroid might not be working like it should. My husband was complaining about dizzy spells. Then he wants his to go talk to another cancer doctor. So this is where we are at now. My husband is not talking that much, might be depression. He has been through alot the past 8 months with the track, feeding tube, and all. He at least wants to get to get back to eating food again. Not very good news, makes everything feel like, well I don't know, just so sad, mad, all the feelings you all know about. Husband yells at the way I',m driving. I forget half the time how to get to point a and b it's all so much to take in. Trying to figure out what doctor is where. And going on half the sleep. I try and not say anything just go and do. I guess that about all anyone one of us can do at atime like this. Half the time I don't know how to spell, just want to talk, or vent, as I know everyone on this sight is going trough just about the same thing, or has gone through the same thing? Anyway, I am going to close my eyes right now, it's only 3:30pm but I have been up since 5 am, took hubby for his blood work, then went to Wal-marts, washed a load of cloths and ironed them. Hubby is asleep on the couch and I am getting ready to close my eyes and rest. This IS a good thing!