Apr 11, 2011 - 12:02 am
I am taking the liberty to re-post LInda's words to be able to continue this discussion on a new thread. Her quote is below:
Nancy opens an interesting point for us to discuss, maybe not on this particular thread, but something I wonder about. Should we pull away when our news is bad? Is it too disheartening for this community when one of us is suffering? My CA125 is over 2000 and I have a CT/PET scheduled and expect some really lousy news. Lately I've thought that my own time may be very short, hope not, but it is what it is.
But I remember the personal messages I received from Teresa late in her journey. And Bonnie and Linda Dorian kept us in the loop almost until the end, too. And I took comfort that they were still communicating, still so ALIVE, still so THEMSELVES, even as their bodies were betraying them. I remember thinking, "I can do this when my time comes. This is bearable, do-able." Because there were moments of joy and humor in their days and their communications, even near the end. I was GLAD they shared it. It made me less afraid, for the unknown is the scariest for me. I know each of our cancers takes its own unique path and how it ends for one of us is not how it ends for all of us. But those examples of grace and courage and humantity; they help me feel more prepared, more at peace.
How do the rest of you feel? Was a glimpse of those journey's ends scary for you, or comforting to know that you will still be YOU, even at the end of the long long battle?